What am I looking for? I have Asked myself. Those who I love and cherish have also asked this question of me!
In the past I was looking for my belief in life, is the answer I was given. At this stage of my path I wanted answers to yesterday’s life. It seemed to me that my present life was transforming. I had a secret that I held close to my heart because I was unaware of the outcome but a desire pushed me forward to find my freedom, my belief, and unconditional love for me and for all.
I was not able to tell you back then who I was going to be or how I was going to go about being who I am today but there was an inner light that connected me in knowing that I was returning to me. I don’t know if this makes sense but I had to go back to the beginning of this life experience and find something. I was developing a process through meditation where I began to understand for myself that my life has been about lessons and that everything happens for a reason.
The first lesson I learned was that we are all teachers and that Earth is a classroom where we are to learn to love one another by awakening from our dream state and remember our truth. I began with my parents and the lessons I learned from them. This filled me with a deeper love and understanding for their own lives and the reasons they were who I chose this lifetime to learn from.
My dad taught me the true meaning of unconditional love for every human being, strangers included and the beauty of Mother Nature. An avid walker, he showed me how to bask in the sunlight, dream and appreciate the beach, parks and stars. It was his voice that spoke to me of kindness, love and respecting all of life. True acceptance of him allowed me to accept all and I must say to never be embarrassed of another’s actions. On this his 15th year Anniversary of passing I smile with the memory of our walks and talks. I miss you dad!
My mom taught me to favor no one and to do my responsibilities as a wife and mother with love and a song in my heart. I travelled with her on a journey of truth and found that truly we are all taught by our parents and I made a point to always remember that I was setting an example for my children because of her. Her wisdom and pain I realized were erased by those that she believed she had to listen to because of the generation she was born into. She never had the chance to have her voice and to follow her dreams but as her daughter, hopefully I helped her to live through me and know she was a great teacher, mom and friend who I truly learned so much from. The pains, fears and sorrow she carried in her heart this lifetime has allowed her to finally escape from it all. She has dementia now and how I would love to hear her voice when I speak to her say, “hi, Lyn!”
My path has been a deep journey of discovery which I shall continue to embrace and share.