Today I Embrace My Path…
As I sit at the table on my deck in the backyard on this beautiful sunny morning I feel connected to a Divine Intelligence. Birds are singing in the tress and the water is flowing by ever so silently. There seems to be a stillness in the air that is comforting. I understand that I need to be part of life to live life. In reality I am more comfortable being alone because I enjoy the company of the universe. I am neither bored nor feel as if I am missing something. It is this beauty and wonder I feel for life that surrounds me and fulfills me. It simply is the need for nothing. I have everything I can think of. This simplicity and beauty of life fills me with joy. I am abundantly fulfilled.
I feel protected and satisfied on this path I am following as I am aligning my life’s goals and purpose. There is a time for all things in one’s life if one is patient, honest, truthful and noble. The part I am learning today is that I must join the human race. This is not easy for me because I have comforted myself in the silence of a lifetime by being a spiritual loving and giving woman. I believe that I have grown beyond a need or reason to teach my children any more. They have learned all they can from me. Now they make choices as adults in their life that they are offered by the universe. Sometimes they just need that connection to me as a means of verification.
I am a child myself learning about all that I can be. I need at this time to play and fill with joy at all that is waiting for me to embrace; to see life through the eyes of children again. My dreams are joyfully filled with wonder by my grand babies as well as the flow of water that I am witness to every day. I am offered an emotional energy that fills me with intuition by the waters of my dreams and daily existence. Water nourishes my soul as it offers me a spiritual alignment with the powers of the universe. I find this to be a connection to the depths of my soul. I am overwhelmed with the emotions of my life at times because they are not what I had expected from myself. It is the ability of feeling connected with all and not separate from but whole that is harmonious.
My strength has always been my children. My greatness is them. I miss the joy and love I surrounded our days with as a mom in the past. Yes, there are telephone calls and questions daily but the time to move on past the walls of just being a mom is now. This change of being a creative, productive woman is upon me in its fullest capacity. I believe I have completed being the woman I was yesterday only because of the strength my children possess today to fulfill their own paths. I have nurtured and nourished them with unconditional love and I am aware that I have to let them fly out into the world and do their own work now.
I notice that my soul/personality is screaming extremely loudly to be heard. My soul is satisfied by my choices and is brightly lit. It is my personality my heart that is bruised and wounded but the comfort of my soul is stronger than the discomfort my personality is going through. The wonder of my whole existence is now the knowledge within which is the truth of how I am and all that I am capable of. If my emotions are bruised it is because as a human being it is part of the journey of life to feel and experience that which we need to learn from. It is fine for me to acknowledge the pain within caused by a life I chose to exist in. For now I believe I need to cleanse myself of that which I no longer need in my life. I will then be nourished by the spirit of my soul.
All in all I am accepting of the changes I have made and realize how the strength and belief in oneself brings one power to be. At times I move slowly and seem to revert back of my own free will to old thoughts. There are endings and beginnings in life and a new beginning can only start with an end of the old, a sort of completion is required as I accept what is today.
I myself look for reasons and excuses when I know the truth yet cannot acknowledge it is so. I am in a state of suspension, a limbo as I wait for my true purification of yesterday. As a balanced, enlightened soul I am dwelling on the change of my lifetime and emotionally I worry of its effect on those I love.
I am not a different me. I am a true me. My choices are for me and the universe. To be joined in unity with love. I see we are all one, all connected. The pain caused to one hurts all. To believe otherwise or that there is separateness is to deceive oneself. There can only be love in life to belong to each other. With no love, no kindness, and no joy one’s light deems.
I believe that the greatest lesson is that change is healthy and required to find one’s way. To love with pain and knowledge of despair is true love. The pain is the emotional aspect of rejection because the blood of love pumps through our veins. My soul requires no answers or reasons why, for a new life is possible once the old one no longer works.
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