Dream – Awaken – Dream
Right now at this moment in time IAM a woman with many dreams to fulfill. It is all I can do to contain myself as I wait, but what am I waiting for? It is the virtue of patience that IAM very good at, mixed with a lot of endurance. It is with this acceptance that I live my life and acknowledge all that is to be. IAM not a child but a woman who has lived a life that was never ever questioned by me. One of my gifts is to pick myself up by connecting to my God-self. The first dream on this amazing journey of my life was to begin to question who I was which opened a door that led me to a path that stirred the passions of my own purpose. I wonder today if I can be other than a published author? Do I have what it takes to help another through the written word or by my speech and actions? My motto is that I believe anything is possible once we choose to make a difference in life. However, one cannot do anything at all without God!
I look back on the past sixty-two years of my existence that was sheltered but very comfortable and familiar with the love of my family and friends. Basically, IAM an introvert, a loner who dreams in the vastness of my own imagination. Yet, IAM a seeker of knowledge today who strives to share with all how powerful we are. I find that others can be very judgmental, mean and hurtful towards me that makes me slip silently back to yesterday and agree with them. Then I remember who IAM because in the pit of my stomach lies a pulse that quickens and tells me to stay true to self – for they do not know.
Unconditional love means accepting each and everyone as they are to walk their own journey, make their own choices and being aware that no one knows what is best for another in any situation. Difficult, yes, but the only way to allow one to connect to their God-self. The ego fills us with fear! Roaring at us about everything that does not matter. God fills us with love! Whispering like a feather that floats by that He rests within. Ego takes us outside of ourselves. God leads us within to where He is.
My path is moving or shifting in a few months and I truly do not know where IAM headed but I trust God does. Another may say that IAM courageous and strong but I think IAM curious to see all that I can accomplish; whether it be through the written word of my writing as in blogging, publishing another book, traveling, educating myself further or just meeting interesting people and simply belonging somewhere other than the memories of yesterday. I have learned to take the good memories because I believe they have brought me to this page but its so easy to slip back into silence. IAM walking away from the life of silence to survive. Yesterday can no longer be for me. It is the new day that I await with love to guide me. To know and understand that IAM following that which is offered by the universe allows me to let go of worry. I truly trust and believe that there is a process to life. Today I look at my life as an existence that has its own strength and IAM simply a form to be used to live this life.
Only I can live this life! No one has the right to silence anyone, harm anyone or even try to degrade another in anyway. The spirit of love and peace fills my spirit. There are no regrets, no fears but only the truth of my self as I connect with all that is. There is a vastness to life that is besides all our journeys as if we are living a dream. Along the journey of life we must awaken from the dream and know our truth to survive.
Pray, Meditate, Journal.