As I travel forward on my journey in this second month of the new year I have taken time to heal. Suddenly on December 22, 2015 I had severe pain in my solar plexus. Finally being admitted to the hospital I had to have an operation to remove my gallbladder. I was released on Christmas Eve to be home for the holidays. I have never had any type of surgery in my 64 years of living. Here I was needing pain meds and anesthesia. The four times I was admitted into a hospital was to bring my beautiful babies to life naturally. When I write I am never sick please believe me that this is a truth I hold proudly to. I don’t even have a doctor! I believe the universe stepped in and threw me a fork in the road.
For one month I took the time to continue meditating, praying, writing in my journal, saying affirmations and coloring. Interestingly enough I decided to take the time to color mandalas one each for the seven chakras in their perspective colors. This action was meditative and thoughtful as I tried to release that which no longer served me.
My belief has always been that there is a reason for everything that we manifest in our lives. Our thoughts, words and action are truly powerful. Our solar plexus is Charka 3 in the body and the color is yellow. The demon of this chakra is shame. This is our body’s power chakra, our will, purpose and action. Our self-worth, self-esteem and personal power. The medical issues for this chakra are:
- problems with the pancreas, including diabetes and hypoglycemia
- digestive difficulties, such as gastric or duodenal ulcers
- liver problems, including cirrhosis, hepatitis and liver cancer
- hiatal hernia
- Varicose veins
- problems with the spleen
Looking at this list I do have varicose veins since a very young age and I learned that I had gallstones which jumped out of the gallbladder and filled me with severe pain. In shock and questioning the doctor, I learned that I had these gallstones for about 30 years and that it was inherited if my mom had her gallbladder out, which she did. Also that becoming a mother had something to do with it. A lightbulb went off in my head when he mentioned 30 years.
For the past 15 years I have been a vegetarian and for two of those years I was a vegan. I changed my life by empowering myself with affirmations, meditation, and prayer. At fifty years of age I went to school and started a business. I counsel one-on-one clients as well as holding workshops and weekend long retreats for women. I self-published a book and write this blog. I am extremely positive in my beliefs and very alternative across the board daily. I also continue my studies when it comes to the chakras, spirituality, and learning from Deborah King.
As I sit and type this as my view on this episode, I understand better today the power of the universe. The past had to be released finally from my body. The projections of others growing up as well as my present life situations. To love unconditionally cannot be taught but it can be seen, I believe. My eyes were opened to my review of my journey and the words I had drilled into my head at a young age. I had no signs that I could put my finger on but there were many moments of despair through the years. At first I felt that I lost something or that I failed at my life because of this imbalance in my third energy center. As crazy as this is to read I feel free, open and as if something was removed from me that no longer served me.
Deborah King writes in her book Truth Heals the following:
An unbalanced third energy center may be expressed in either outward push mode (the aggressor) or inward collapse mode (the victim). Co-dependent relationships are fertile breeding grounds for this push/collapse dynamic. One person pays the role of “can-do” while the other acts out the “can’t-do” – both are dis-empowered. Those with collapsed third energy centers often feel doubtful, indecisive and lacking in self-confidence.
To support an increase in energy, vitality and connection to self, I often recommend that people spend a portion of their day in the sun, preferably in the early morning or just before sunset. Engaging in any physical movement awakens and recharges your body, especially first thing in the morning. Try some form of intentional movement like t’ai chi, yoga or pilates, preferably outside. Gardening is another wonderful antidote to a frantic, fast-paced routine. Anything that allows you to slow down and become acquainted with who you are and what you really feel is key.
My path is clearer today than yesterday. There comes a time in one’s life where we must decide to get to know our truth and what is our passion and purpose. As a child I always wanted to be a teacher and writer. Today I feel that I live my passion and purpose in all that I do. With my husband, four amazing children, five grand babies, friends/family and wonderful clients and soul sisters in the Deborah King’s Soul family I am loving this ride.
Meditate. Pray. Journal