THE KEYS OF FREEDOM

As a lover of the written word, I have spent my entire life taking pen to paper. Some may call it a form of therapy. I believe it is a release of that which no longer serves me that my mind clings to. In 1984, I began the journey of writing poetry to deal with stress in my life. For years I rarely felt the neeed to write a poem but more a type of journal writing when needed. In December of 2016 I was at a workshop with my teacher Deborah King in California. As I normally start my day with prayer, meditation and writing I started to write the following poem. I hope you are inspired by my words. My release. My form of therapy!

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I almost lost myself
“The Me of Me!”
In my Spirituality
I became numb to myself
“My Inner Reality!”
Never again,
Shall I stuff down deep within
“My Personality!”

I have laughed …
I have cried …
I needed to die …
From the woman I created
To please those who chose to berate
The brilliance of my light
But the darkness I dove into
Showed “Me.”
I needed to fight
For, “The Me of Me!”
To set “Me” Free …

Freedom is essential
I clearly now see
As a child raised in fear
I silenced the “Me” without a tear
I became a wife on a journey
Of discovery to finally hear

The voice of my inner child’s cry;
“Embrace me for I do not want to die,
Pull me free from the depths of this despair,
For I cannot breathe without your care …”

So I held onto her fingertips
From deep within my being
Knowing it was time to pull her
Up from an inner sorrow,
I was witnessing …

Struggling at first
because of the years
Of neglect of my inner beliefs
I discovered a voice to unravel
“The Me of Me …”

I had roared loudly as a mom
Filled with love, joy, and happiness
Proud of the honor to be chosen
So I became fearlessly
An advocate for those who needed “Me …”

My sanity I was gifted!
As their mom, I was bold
My Passion!
My Purpose!
Allowed me to unfold

With joy for the chores of my life
Stronger beyond even I knew,
I was able to handle all strife …

One may wonder of the time needed
To hug “Me” into becoming my Truth
A week …
A month …
A year …
For “Me” it seemed a lifetime
Of Journaling – Reading – Writing Poetry
By releasing my fears and finally
Allowing the tears!

Still, I subdued the real “Me of Me,”
Behind my Spirituality
Once again I silenced a part of my
Inner child’s laughter, joy, and happiness
Through this new sacred personality!

Today I believe as a spiritual being
I am here to experience my human creation
As I am,
The Divine Presence of God
In action
The “I” that “I AM,”
The “Me of Me.”
Finally …

Thankful!
Grateful!
Joyful!
For the lessons, I learned
Offers an acceptance for the
Sacrifices made,
By those who loved “Me,”
As I loved “them.”
Whether they be family
or friend.

I was aware of a vast resource
on the Ring of Keys!
The Discovery of my
Key of Freedom has
Opened the door
For me to experience more

Which then led “Me” to the
Key of Forgiveness!
To move forward on the path of my
Intended life experience
Once I embraced the Key of Forgiveness!
I experienced the
Key of Gratefulness!

Love…
Light…
Laughter…
Are the Keys to all spiritual passion,
And where I discovered my purpose,
The reason I was born!
The joy of being whole
Now living a large life
No longer being small

The memories of the “smallness,”
I achieved can be released
Today,
I know the path I traveled
Whether silent or not,
fueled my desires

My soul needed to feel nourished
and to be nurtured
Immediately!
So that I could spiritually divorce myself
from an unhealthy
Reality!

Still, I continued to struggle
With who I now was
To believe I could
Grow “Me” to be a better “Me,”
Filled with insight and a new reality!

It seems my belief of going within
For answers to my pain
Ignited a “Love of Self,”
I cherish, which erased
The belief I was insane…

Although I question if this has always been
“The Me of Me…”
Just silently waiting to claim “Me.”
As one who knows that everyone
Has the right to be free!

It is the core of my essence
I’ve connected with
joyfully…
Allowing my truth to unfold
courageously!

My soul is aware it is
nourished beyond and above
More than I could have ever imagined
Through the practice of
Prayer…
Meditation…
Intention…
And Love!

Pray. Meditate. Journal.

www.LindaAmato.com

TIS THE SEASON…

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I am flying high on the spirit of the season. My mind travels to the days of my childhood and the excitement and wonder of this time of year. I love the simplicity that allows me to give gifts as a way of expressing my appreciation to those in my life. To me, the energy of money is to share it, if you can! The abundance in my life allows me to be thankful and filled with gratitude daily.

“Had I known that I planned my challenges, I would have seen them rich with purpose …”  – Robert Schwartz from Your Soul’s Plan

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Unfortunately, many fill with despair and grief because of the sad and sorrowful circumstances that they have travelled during their life journey. It is the season to take the time to love all that any of us has experienced, including ourselves. After all, we are surrounded by lights, music and colorful decorations everywhere we go. An added bonus is a snowfall! What delight as a child to know with glee the anticipation of opening gifts. Maybe we need as adults to return to that childhood wonder during this season.

“On Earth and throughout the Universe, Divine Order is created and Divine Will expressed through Service…” – Robert Schwartz from Your Soul’s Gift

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We celebrate as Christians that this is the time of Christ’s birth. What did Christ teach but to love one another, to be kind, and to give of ourselves! Yet, many of us stumble and fall this time of year to a past grief, anger, fear, depression, or hatred even.  I always wondered about the need to simply be mean to anyone you claim to love. Grief is a belief that we have lost someone who we loved and that we can no longer see or touch them. We remain stuck in the memory of the end of their life here and forget the joyful loving memories of yesterday. We are a society that stay with a loved one who has transitioned on at the moment we buried them. Why do we forget their life? How they loved? When they cared and supported us? Why do we not tell their stories and share how they reached us while they lived with laughter, joy, happiness even at times sadness?

” Every death is brought about by the culmination of the vibration of the Being. There is not an exception to that. No one, beast or human, makes their transition into the Non-Physical without it being the vibrational consensus that is within them-so every death is a suicide because every death is self-imposed…” – Ask and It is Given by Esther and Jerry Hicks

However, I believe there is no death but more a transition, there is no end and there is no need to cling to this grief. As eternal spiritual beings our loved ones are right next to us on the other side of the veil. We can dream of them, we can talk to them but most of all we can remember the lives they lived, the joy and laughter they shared with us. They are at peace and they try to reach us by many different means; coins, electricity, lights, music, even license plates. Just believe they are with you and you will feel them yourself. Let them rest in peace and pray for them.

“To find the source of any darkness you may be fighting, and then release it, is one of the most powerful things you can do to move into greater light and joy…” – Deborah King from Entangled in Darkness

Depression knocks us off our feet into the depths of our mind and we cannot function. Yet, we all have a choice every day how we want to feel and how we want to live our lives. Not easy, but we do have the choice to make a decision ourselves and what emotion we want to experience. A good test upon awakening or throughout the day is to ask yourself, “How do I feel right now?” “Why do I feel this way?” “How would I like to feel?”  Three very simple sentences will bring you to an awareness of yourself and your feelings.

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There are many different circumstances for anger, fear and hatred but there is a key to release these emotions that no longer serves us. The key is to forgive ourselves and then to forgive those who have harmed us in some way and filled us with hatred towards them. We can do this by writing down our feelings and then releasing them by burning the paper. Forgiveness will heal you and allow you personally to benefit on your life experience, as well as, them.

Years ago, I read that we pick our parents to learn lessons from them or maybe to help them learn a lesson. Recently, I read that we pick everyone that walks our journey with us. In doing so, we make a plan on what we need to learn and what we need to experience this lifetime. Can you imagine how wonderful it is to know that nothing is as it seems. That you actually planned the life you are living.

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I have been down the road of depression, grief, anger, and hatred, as well as, suicide. In 1994, I learned that I personally cannot control who lives and who dies. The depths of sorrow at the end of a physical life whether adult, child or even a pet is a wave that sits openly in the depths of our hearts forever. We ache for them!  We cry, become depressed and grief takes us over until we cannot breathe or function in life! The pain is unbearable because death is the unknown and the greatest of fears in our society.

“All of the survival patterns arise out of feeling unsafe and all are attempts to create some sense of safety for ourselves. …” – Steven Kessler from The 5 Personality Patterns

I imagine at times that the childhood many of us have lived and experienced has created within us a means of protecting ourselves. As adults today we get triggered to react by simply filling with fear or anxiety, becoming passive, have feelings of being defeated, developing tension or we simply  refuse to express our feelings, because of a situation that brings us back to the original moment in time of thinking we were not safe.

“Write it on your heart that every day is the best day in the year…” – Ralph Waldo Emerson

These survival/defense patterns we created under the age of seven fill us with a belief; that we need to escape mentally, to remember our abandonment issues, because we had been betrayed, or maybe at one time we had no control and were betrayed by someone we loved. Because of these beliefs today as an adult we do not live our truth. We escape at the blink of an eye into a survival/defense pattern. Maybe we just need to finally strengthen our boundaries, own our needs and stand on our own two feet, begin to trust, be assertive or just connect to our heart. Now is the time to finally begin to shift out of these survival/defense patterns and live our truth by becoming aware of our triggers and how we react in all our relationships with others.

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Here’s a gift from me to you: The following books are insightful, and filled with information that will make you think about your own life experience and those you share it with.

  • Your Soul’s Plan: Discovering the Real Meaning of the Life You Planned Before You Were Born by Robert Schwartz 
  • Your Soul’s Gift: The Healing Power of the Life You Planned Before You Were Born by Robert Schwartz
  • Entangled in Darkness: Seeking the Light by Deborah King
  • The 5 Personality Patterns: Your Guide to Understanding Yourself and Others and Developing Emotional Maturity by Steven Kessler
  • Ask and It is Given by Esther and Jerry Kicks (The Teachings of Abraham)

“Violence of the tongues very real-sharper than any knife…” – Mother Teresa

When reading books, blogs or written material of any kind please use your discernment. My above suggestions are just a few of the books that have enlightened me on my path. We are all on this beautiful journey to awaken to the divine love within. To grow our Souls! When we awaken we become seekers to heal by incorporating meditation, prayer and journaling into our daily lives. Now is the most magical time of year, and I hope this blog in some way triggered you to take a peak into my world.

Earlier this week we had a snowfall which magical turned our world white and glistening. I filled with the hope of peace and love for this world and all who I share my life with. The wonder of my childhood surfaced with joy and happiness as I listened to holiday music. My prayer for all is that we learn to open our hearts and fill with love for each other as the spiritual beings we are!

PRAY! MEDITATE! JOURNAL!

www.LindaAmato.com 

The Gift of Time!

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“The  present moment  is a powerful goddess…” -Johann Wolfgang von Goethe

The beauty of daily life is to be aware of the moment that ignites your senses to become present. To treasure these days as points of the mind where one feels encouraged to be calm, happy and grateful.  To be witness that one is  blessed with a gift that can be treasured forever. Time to be with the self allows one to know who they are. When we meditate, pray, journal, read or create, that is the essence of a life awakening to the self. Throw in the beauty of Mother Nature and bask in her love which can be a special moment in time. Being blessed personally to enjoy my daily life experience I feel completely in awe of God and His teachings as they have been shown to me. I treasure the moments we share.

“Be frugal of your time. It is one of the best jewels we have…” -Sir Matthew Hale

I travel through my day breathing in the beauty of Mother Nature that sits right outside my window. I relish in a life lived to take the time I need to nurture my body, mind and soul. Through my spiritual practice, I have focused on the benefits of meditation, prayer, journaling and reading of spiritual books which fill me with the glow of my inner being. My days are full of peace, joy and happiness. There sits within my heart a belief that I am exactly doing what I need to do at this time in my life. The thoughts of yesterday’s fears are no longer. There is nothing that can take my beliefs away from me at this time.

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“Time is the measurer of all things, but is itself immeasurable, and the grand discloser of all things, but is itself undisclosed…” -Charles Caleb Colton

I have been given a gift that does not follow a world that I no longer need to be attached to. I am free. I am aware. I am connected. My past has shown me the lessons learned and that forgiveness is essential on the path for all to claim. It matters not what happened in the past only that I release the need or desire to cling to something I cannot change. This gift of time I have been granted allows me to know my truth, to know me!

“To thine own self be true…” – William Shakespeare

Life is to be lived, forgiven and shared with an unconditional love that what we do to another we do to ourselves. What connects us all is our daily actions that we take for granted. We are all one because of the energy of the following:  we walk this planet called Mother Earth, we use her water, her sun shines on us all, and we breathe her air. Imagine how this gift of oneness can benefit each of us by honoring and respecting one another completely, no questions asked. With respect, love and acceptance we embrace each other and love those we share this planet with because we can. Why not?

“The goal of life is to make your heartbeat match the beat of the universe, to match your nature with Nature…” -Joseph Campbell

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Now is the time to take the journey on your path that will set you free of your fears! The gift of time is yours to claim as a personal moment to know the God within. The tools we use to make this connection are many. Find one or more that suits you to develop your time now to develop your freedom, awareness and connection that is your personal gift to claim and unique to you.

  • Accept those you share your life with as they are.
  • Begin a Spiritual Practice of your own.
  • Embrace Mother Nature and her beauty.
  • Forgive yourself so you can forgive others.
  • Be kind to yourself and others.
  • Open your heart to know what you believe is true.
  • Love who you are as you are.
  • Mediate. Pray. Journal. Create.

Please feel free to comment and share. That You!

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The Sorrow of Loss

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Can it be that we struggle daily to find ourselves? Is it our truth and essence that sits deep within but which we cannot grasp that calls to us? We know of a place that is not here but still there is a loss that stirs our soul to all that we believe in. What is the essence of this loss? Why do we fill with sorrow? Is it of this lifetime or a past lifetime?

“You yourself, as much as anybody in the entire universe, deserve your love and affection.” -Buddha

Many of us have experienced some form of abuse in our lives but what if this so called abuse is generational? How can we eliminate further emotional, physical or mental abuse from our daughters/sons and their daughter/sons. Abuse is not solely characterized as an issue that only women experience. Yet, we the women of the world carry the cross squarely on our hearts filled with this ache of sorrow and loss. Can this loss that we desire to find be that of emotionally feeling and witnessing unconditional love. Generationally, everyone has done the best they knew how to do but the energy today screams for us to forgive and to love unconditionally. This is the sorrow I write of. This is the loss we all have experienced.

“Poisonous relationships can alter our perception. You can spend many years thinking you’re worthless. But you’re not worthless, you’re unappreciated.” -Steve Maraboli

We as a people, community, society, neighborhood and family are ripe to feel loved. Finally, the past does not fit into the present no longer. Anger, fear, hate, prejudice, criticism and judgment has no place in today’s world because there is too deep a sorrow felt for the loss of yesterday that has been experienced. Love is the present solution for all to release our karma and that which no longer serves us.

“Love is the great miracle cure. Loving ourselves works miracles in our lives.” -Louise L. Hay”

img_4234With love as a foundation at this time we will finally know the meaning and truth to the words, “Love your neighbor as you Love yourself!” The sorrow of loss is that many do not know how to love themself because of the pain they have been witness to by abuse in their lives. Abuse fills the heart and mind with the simple thought that, I am not worthy of being loved!” The different forms of abuse a child, young adult, teenager, wife, husband or parent experiences wears the personality down to a deep emptiness that something is missing in life. We try to fill this emptiness with addictions of many kinds and material possessions. However, the soul knows nothing is missing because we are all born as beings of love and light. The love we do not receive because of the generational aspect that pushes forward on its own must be stopped today.

img_4231“Our entire life … Consists ultimately in accepting ourselves as we are.” – Jean Anouih

Abuse has been rampant in many of our lives but no longer is acceptable today. The main tool to release the sorrow of loss at this time is to begin to meditate daily. This simple but profound tool of healing carries the benefit of connecting you to your soul and releasing what no longer serves you. Be aware that your children and their children shall benefit from you consciously ending the sorrow of loss due to abuse of any kind. There is truth in the fact that when you love yourself just as you are, no matter what you have been told by another, you will experience a connection to that part of you that is called your God-self! We are here to like God and to be of service.

Meditate. Pray. Journal.

www.lindaamato.com

www.deborahking.com (to learn how to meditate)

THE TOOLS OF MAGIC

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The power of magic in our lives is based on our beliefs. Do you believe in magic? Does life seem magical at times? Can magic fill you with glee at the memory of your childhood? Is that innocence no longer part of your day?

We are born filled with all possibility to create a magical existence. However, we become trapped into the world of adults and their beliefs governed by society. A society that drills into us that more is the answer to life. We become overwhelmed by the beliefs of others on how to look, dress and what job we must accept. Cars that we drive even have a status in today’s world. How much money we need to exist and what foods we must eat. WHY?

“Find that magical place in life and live there…”

Why have we allowed our lives to be based on what others believe and think? Can we not return to the childhood innocence of a belief that anything is possible even magic! Is it not time today to stop and become aware of what stirs our soul and heart. What are we passionate about in life today that thrilled us as a child? Why can’t we release from our minds the echo of our parents and societies beliefs, and that which no longer serves us today as adults?

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Through the practice of meditation and the act of going within to hear the silence from the depths of our soul magic is created. It is the magic we crave today that will inspire us to live our lives based on the truth of our own beliefs.

Many of us have had difficult childhoods but trust me if you sit in silence the memories of magical times from your inner child will surface eventually to comfort you as an adult today. Embrace your inner child to feel safe and loved by you today.What did you dream for yourself as a child?

We are all here to love and be loved, to forgive and be of service. When death comes to the physical body all that will live eternally is the love you shared and the light you offered towards another by being of service.

“Life is a sequence of moments and when those moments sequence right. It’s magical…”

The daily practice of prayer after meditation is the gift we give to ourselves as well as those we pray for.  Reading spiritual books for 15 minutes a day enlightens our spiritual practice to create magic to unfold through our connection to Spirit. We will then believe in ourselves by the process of loving all that we have survived because our lives have passion and purpose. We begin to float through the day, loving our journey as it unfolds magically all around us.

It is the beliefs of our truth that we must cling to now – today – not tomorrow. It is time to change our ways and be the spiritual beings we were born to be. Stand up for yourself and be the magical spiritual being that you were created for. As our journey of magic unfolds it is that time that will nourish you to be the best person you can be. Why not strive for the magic?

“All I know is that when I pray, coincidences happen; and when I don’t pray. they don’t happen…” -Dan Hayes

Life is yours to claim and create that which stirs your soul to awakening to your truth. It is your passion that you silently held close to your heart as a child that needs to be fueled today no matter what another told you in the past. We as spiritual beings are extremely powerful by the simple way we use our thoughts, words and actions daily. We are all magical.

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Life is a path we travel that creates the journey to fulfill our humanity by being brave enough to walk how we choose to. Release any old beliefs that you are not worthy enough, smart enough, good enough or even pretty or handsome enough. YOU are perfect just as you are. YOU are at the right place where you are meant to be today. There are no mistakes. Now let the magic in. Live your life not how someone drills into they believe you should live. There is no ‘should’ in magic.

“Logic will get you from A-Z! Imagination will get you everywhere…” -Albert Einstein

The last tool after meditating, praying and reading spiritual books is to journal your feelings on whatever pain you hold on to. Release the pain through the act of keeping a daily journal. The best form of therapy there is and you can do it in the moments that fill you with doubt.

Meditate. Pray. Journal.

www.LindaAmato.com

BLOGGING

 

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It has come to my attention that my followers were having difficulty trying to comment on my blog… As a blogger I appreciate everyone who takes the time to read and then comment. It seems that there was a glitch and now if you choose to, you will be able to comment. Please try again for the sake of me being a blogger.

If there continues to be a problem please email me at la@makingbelievers.com

I blog to share information that I have studied for years…

I blog to be creative in my life…

I blog to teach that being positive will change your life…

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From the bottom of my heart … thanks…

Love, Light, Healing and Hugs.

Linda Amato

Meditate. Pray. Journal.

www.LindaAmato.com

Life is Constantly Changing

“The magic of water has been in my life for years now as I wake up every day to  behold the beautiful sight of Mother Nature…”-Linda Amato

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My Backyard View

As I sit here in my library and fill with a heart full of gratitude for the days that are moving me forward. I am blessed. My life is wondrous. I am connected to Spirit. This belief of mine although alternative and difficult for many to comprehend has been rooted out of the depth of my soul from many lifetimes, I believe. I can remember the day even at this moment when I wondered if there was ‘more?’ I felt there had to be more to this experience we all call life. It was then that I begged for guidance in 2003 which led me to today.

“If you can’t be in awe of Mother Nature, there’s something wrong with you.” -Alex Trebek

It seems I was never truly aware but I did know I was not alone so I just moved one step in front of the other being a good girl. Quiet and silent was my belief, after all “Silence is golden!” As a child I was stronger then my brother and mother. I could handle more at a young age. There was an essence within that told me to be kind, loving and helpful. Never ever was I to be confrontational. Why? I wonder today why I could not have the power of speech until I was fifty. My answer this day is because it served me well to be silent and allowed me to be awakened to my truth. I know this because I believe there is a reason for everything.

“The most important this is to enjoy your life – to be happy – it’s all that matters.” -Audrey Hepburn

IMG_0749Raised in a time of change I never chose to be a rebel or  hippie yet, I felt I was never in the box. I obeyed my parents, elders and everyone. I questioned if they were right in my head but I never questioned them. There was always that inner essence that guided me daily. Human behavior is something I delight in and since I began studying with Deborah King in 2012 I have learned the many reasons we as humans do what we do.

At my age today: as a daughter, wife, mother, and grandmother I realize today the importance of women in my life. I have collected a tribe of my own that I have fallen in love with and I believe it is my way of being of service to them by sharing all that I can that is of alternative belief.  To begin with there is no right and no wrong way of living YOUR life experience. How can there be such a belief. We are here because we choose to be here on this planet at this time. We are a combination of soul and human. Our soul part is love and our human part is ego. That is where the battle within begins.

“We do not remember days, we remember moments.” -Cesare Pavese

We choose which one we are going to nourish daily by our thoughts, words and actions. What do you believe today that is different from what you believed yesterday? Change is constant because there is no way we can stay exactly the same in our thoughts, words and actions unless we fuel a life dedicated to negativity, unhappiness, regret and anger as our path because of something that happened a long time ago to us. As beings of love and light it is very difficult to choose the path of the ego/human belief daily. It is frustrating to realize that being angry or unhappy is not our nature. Especially since love seeps in when we bask in the beauty of Mother Nature, see or hold a baby, a sunset, smell a rose, fall in love, make love, celebrate a wedding, or birthday or just receive a compliment.

My question to you then is why not choose to nurture your soul/love part more often. When we choose to love we choose to transition and grow higher on the path of our journey. To choose love we must forgive ourselves and anything that happened by another to us in our past. We all have a choice to live as we choose to live so go for it! Just let go of anything that no longer serves you today.

“It is as grandmothers that our mothers come into the fullness of their grace. – Christopher Morley

I have chosen love and I believe that I have been able to nourish and nurture my soul daily. Is it easy, you ask? I can honestly say it is getting easier! The wonder of my life is the children that I share my life with from the ages of 8, 6, 4, 3, 2, and 1 month. It is magical to hold a baby in your arms and know she is heaven sent as an angel to share her love and light in the world. To talk to a child and listen, really listen to what scares him or what fills him with joy. To wrap your arms around a sleeping child and carry him into his home to rest all toasty and really heavy. To bathe a child and laugh as he laughs at the wonderment of water that fills him with delight. To watch the ballerina from within surface in her as she spins around or sings a song. Then there is the child that fills your heart to bursting for the simplicity of his outlook on life. Yes, I am truly blessed.

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I remember my children growing up and I always took time to listen to their stories and imagine today if you can, because they still reach out to me to tell me their stories. As a mother I learned the greatest of lessons from my mom to love unconditionally all, especially the children. As I sit here and type I wonder what will be because my grand babies are coming over to go in the pool and I am ready to play and swim with them because they are pure beings of love and light still and I know it. Yet, I also notice the changes that are screaming to be let free by them to be able to just be. Many children today are new souls and are clueless as to how to live in our world They need us as old souls to teach them. What better way to teach them then to love them unconditionally, hear them and explain life to them.

“A house needs a grandma in it.” -Louise May Alcott

I’m amazed at the love that fills my heart for these grand babies that are being raised by my children. I reflect back on my days of being their mom and truly can write I don’t know how I did it, except for the one fact that I loved every moment. I enjoyed being a mom and all it entailed! I live in a very large home that most days now is quiet. There is no more laughter, crying, yelling or playing. Yet in my minds eyes I can almost see them all at the dinner table. Having dinner when they were older was my favorite time as we sat for hours discussing their day. Today I believe I raised four amazing children because I simply took the time to really hear what they had to say. Now the voices of six grand babies fills my home when they visit and sadly, I know the silence will return when they leave. The beauty of my life is that I enjoy everyday just looking outside my kitchen to the love of Mother Nature that has comforted me all these years.

Meditate. Pray. Journal.

www.LindaAmato.com

http://www.DeborahKing.com

Our Fathers Brothers and Sons …

The memories of being his daughter can only be shared from the eyes of the child I was. I recall that I held on so tight to his hand when we walked the streets of our neighborhood. Even today, I could see the birds in the trees as they chirped while children played stick ball in the street. The smell of summertime was in the air as we walked to the avenue to get french fries and fried shrimp in a brown paper bag which we ate as we walked back home. I was always amazed at the fun I had with my dad just walking around our neighborhood.

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“Old as she was she still missed her daddy.” -Gloria Naylor

My favorite memory of his was when he walked home from work and I could hear him whistling. These memories are stored in my heart safely from a time that filled me with wonder at the life I lived yesterday. Dad loved Mother Nature and all her beauty. Walking, swimming and being outside fueled his soul. He was nourished by all that She shared with him daily. I learned to respect Her at a young age and to never dirty Her world with paper or gum. Today these thoughts comfort me when I recall the  moments shared with the man I called dad!

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I miss him today mostly on Wednesdays. Why? Well that was the day I visited him weekly for years or at one time he visited me and it was his favorite day of the week. He lived in and out of mental institutions and adult homes for the last thirty years of his life. The day came when he could not put on a front of being normal for my children so he told me, “I can no longer come to your house its too difficult for me to leave my world and enter yours.” Now I know what he meant. Labelled manic-depressant because he attempted suicide he struggled for years to continue being the dad that I adored. My belief is that people who struggle with depression of any kind have had their hearts broken by someone they loved and trusted. I’m positive today that I was loved by him as deeply as I loved him.

“One father is more than a hundred schoolmasters.” -George Herbert

He nicknamed me “author!” He believed I was a writer. He encouraged me to write a book about his life. I wrote a spiritual/fictional story about his life that I self-published but today when I reflect on my words I believe it just might have been my life as well. Making Believers: “Connect to the light within…” was in honor of my dad’s life and I showed how once one connects to the light within change is possible. Growth is essential and unconditional love is the key to opening our hearts.

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I am at an age of insight and clarity. My wisdom years one might say. I have discovered the truth in the words that we are spiritual beings having a human experience. My belief is that we are here to learn how to be human beings. What if, we are here to learn the simple lesson of love? When we love we accept and forgive those that we fear. When we love we open our hearts to release love towards others. It is time in life right now to love, forgive and accept that we are all doing the best we can.

“We are here to connect with our soul!” -Linda Amato

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My suggestion to you is to look at the life your father shared with you as if you were still that child and he was the greatest gift on earth to you. Be that small child in awe of a dad that can do anything and do it well. Open your heart to the memories of laughter and fun. What have you learned from your dad that puts a smile on your face?

Be in delight of the times he held your hand maybe crossing the street. Was he the dad that taught you to hunt, fish, ride a  bike or drive a car? Was he the man who showed you how to hold a baseball bat, toss a ball or play hockey? Remember the times when you struggled and he was there to help you stand up again! He may have just come  home on Sunday with an apple turnover just for you! Does seeing an apple turnover today remind you of him? What reminds you today of the dad he once was that puts a smile on your face?

Was he the dad who walked you down the aisle on your wedding or gave a toast in your honor? Was he simply the man you looked up to as your hero and is not capable of being a hero in your eyes today because of illness or death? Are you carrying his fears as your own today? Know its time to release the past and hug tight to your heart the memories of love and joy that you cherished as a child.

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“The quality of a father can be seen in the goals, dreams and aspirations he sets not only for himself, but for his family.” -Reed Markham

My belief is that our fathers have a very difficult time being human because they have been taught to be strong, fearless and not to show their emotions. Dads have fears too! So please be gentle with your dad today and if he no longer shares this world forgive him his fears. As a daughter, wife, sister, and mother there are many men in my life that are fathers today that I cherish. I see the struggle within to express truth because of financial concerns, illness, and having to support their family. As women we expect their strength to support us in all situations but they have to be taught to know its safe to express love and show emotion from a young age. Maybe one day our father, brothers, husbands and sons will shed the tears that bind them.

“It is not flesh and blood but the heart which makes us fathers and sons!” -Johann Friedrich Von Schiller

At one time in my life I wrote many poems when I was struggling with understanding life myself. Poetry helped me heal my fears. Here is one I would like to share that I wrote the year after my dad went home to the spirit world at the age of seventy.

I AM AT PEACE

A lifetime we shared

I as your child

You were so mild

I treasure the memory

Like pictures in a book

And the wisdom you gave me.

My heart full of pain

My body hurt so

When you had to go.

The days filled with tears

The nights without sleep

For I wanted you near.

I approach the anniversary

A year since your death

With a calmness inside

I no longer need to cry.

A cleansing of my mind

My eyes are dry

As I now say, “goodbye!”

 Meditate. Pray. Journal.

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What a Great Ride it Has Been

             “In youth we learn; in age we understand.” – Marie Ebner-Eschenbach

This morning I opened my eyes and thought of the amazing ride I have been on. I sat up in bed and fell into my morning ritual; I meditated, prayed and contemplated on being sixty-five years old. I’m amazed by this lifetime I have journeyed. My personal ride began with what I labeled as a child of this inner feeling I called, “the blues!” Today I imagine it was just fear as a child that confused me. Being scared, afraid or terrified at a young age was the norm such a long time ago. Still the feelings sit deep within my heart even today. Tears can overflow at the inner conflict for my inner child of yesterday. There was a time I buried her deeply only to discover I could not breathe without her. I realize today that fifteen years ago I embraced her holding on to my eyelids and offered her love. It was time for her to resurface and know her truth. We began a new ride. The memories of my youth are filled with drinking fighting and abusive behavior between my dad and mom. Fear filled our home only because Friday nights dad came home drunk. Mom became embarrassed and totally afraid of him!


“You must learn to make your whole world your school.” -Martin H. Fischer

I know that I am not the only woman to have grown up in a house with an alcoholic/manic-depressant or fearful/critical parent. In fact, I realize as a child I had no understanding of these types of labels. I did not know the ride would take me through abandonment, abuse, fear, pain, tears, death and lies over and over again. Death is a part of life but sudden unexpected deaths are terrifying at any age. My only brother to die by a drunk driver, my oldest nephew to be murdered then my beloved dad to  die of lung cancer. I know that at times there was great laughter and love going up but coming down that roller coaster  could almost make me topple over and crash when the fears arose.

 “Why be anything other than good? Why do anything other than love!” –Johnathan Dahl

 However, here I sit as a whole woman, loved, fulfilled, happy and amazed with gratitude for the experiences of my lifetime. I live a good life! I admit I struggle still today when those I love are unkind, critical or judgmental of one another. It is those times that my inner child comforts me with a memory of me climbing a tree at McCarren Park, swimming at Coney Island or just drinking Mountain Dew and eating pretzels on the stoop. It was the simplicity of yesterday that encourages me to love unconditional. I’m thrilled with the joyous memories of my childhood today because those were the moments that pushed me forward. The fearful dark memories are drifting further and further away from my inner sight.

            “If you don’t like how things are, change it! You’re not a tree.” – Jim Rohn

I blame no one for the ride I chose to take because at this time in my life I believe I am an amazing  wife, mother and grandmother. How did I get to this time in my life believing that my life is wonderful? It always comes back to the simple parts of the ride I believe. When my dad was dying he looked at me and said, “I had a wonderful life so don’t cry for me because you are gong to die one day too!” That was in 1998 and finally I get it!

At forty years old he attempted suicide and lived the next thirty years in and out of mental institutions supported and loved by me and my husband for anything he needed. Weekly visits were the norm when he was not hospitalized but living in an adult home facility and happy no matter what. A true loved of Mother Nature he taught me to respect her as well. With forgiveness, acceptance, kindness, unconditional love, and not taking anything personal I made these beliefs my tools. Meditation, prayer and writing in my journal are my supplements to the ride. Knowing I am connected and blessed are my gifts today.


  “Life shrinks or expands in proportion to ones courage.” – Anais Nin

There will always be ups and downs because there is so much to learn in the greatest of classes in life called relationships. To love, hate, fear, and anger are the cornerstones of all relationships until we end any form of confrontation, control, and criticism. There came a time on my journey when the abandonment issues of my mom settled deep within to thug at my heart. After repeated abandonment episodes like her moving to Puerto Rico because her son had died and there was no reason for her to stay in New York I would cringe at her words for a very long time. It was my dad who told me she was not a smart woman and to forgive her. Today I know I am the person I am because of her and that I would not have been able to know my gifts and talents if she remained by my side. Could this have been a contract we agreed on prior to birth?

When I discovered what an amazing ride I have experienced because of the choices and changes I made, I filled with a deep sense of gratitude. At this age I know when I sit and color with gel pens for an hour or so my inner child is happy. If I choose to take a walk, read a good book or practice some yoga poses I have reconnected with the simplicity of life that fills me with joy. When I share my wisdom with others through counseling, workshops, blogging and talking I am being of service. The wisdom we all possess rests deep within and needs to be connected to so that peace can be part of the ride. The time will come when everyone gets the chance to get off their amazing roller coaster ride and live a loving, peaceful existence. Know it is possible as I do! When you exit you will breathe a feeling of contentment and smile as you remark, “what a great ride it has been!”

Meditate! Pray! Journal!

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Being A Conscious Woman

“Love is life. All, everything that I understand, I understand only because I love.”-Leo Tolstoy

As we approach the yearly day set aside to celebrate all the moms in the world, let’s extend love to all the women of the world! As we are born from our mom it is that aspect that we honor. We as women are sacred because we give life, we nurture and nourish. Our bodies are the temple to the children who choose us.  How have we forgotten our greatness? How have we forgotten our truth? How did  we become victims of a society that we as the temples of life gave birth to?

“Above all, be the heroine of your life, not the victim.” –    Nora Ephron

Being an avid reader and student of life I find it extremely upsetting to be reading the stories of abuse, fear, guilt, shame and women that feel they are victims today because of their relationship with their mother. We are more than that when we accept our truth, live our truth and gather together as community.  When we share our stories, we heal. When we forgive ourselves, we heal. When we choose to forgive our moms, we heal. When we honor our moms because within we know they did the best they could, we heal. As a society of healed women our daughters will become the goddesses they are born to be.

“Go ahead unleash your INNER GODDESS today. Embrace all that FABULOSITY that is amazing you…”

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Recently, I attended a gathering of women with my youngest daughter that allowed me to heal from that which no longer served me. The simple pain of a mom who did the best she could because of her own mothers fears, allowed me to do even better. I chose to be a conscious mother raising my children. There was an intuitive guidance that I received! A knowing to love unconditionally because I was setting an example. I knew I was being watched. There was this inner belief of mine that I did not own my children and all that was required of me was to listen, support, guide, be present and there for whatever needs were required of me. Even today I have learned that they still need me to be there for them, to simply listen when they need to vent. Being blessed to also be a stay at home mom I loved every aspect of being a mom.

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I have been given the greatest of gifts by my children to know I did them well. I gave to them something that I did not receive from my mom but which I am aware today she never received  from her mom! I forgive myself for at one time judging her. Today, I forgive her for not being able to do as I needed her to do. I thank her for teaching me to be the mom I am today.

“A Goddess is a Woman Who Breaks The Mold. She’s Who She Wants To Be … And She Offers No Apologies.” -Lisa Marie Rosati

Life seems to be like a Ferris wheel that we all get on as women because of how we were raised. We need to know we can get off the Ferris wheel and remember who we are, not who we have been told to be. As a society we need to love our children especially our daughters unconditionally because they are also the mothers of our grandchildren! As a mother of two sons as well, I am aware of their love for me, and the tenderness and love they possess for the women in their lives. They will be fathers of my granddaughters that will be a goddess of tomorrow! I am witness to the fact that I have done well by them.

“It takes someone really brave to be a mother, Someone strong to raise a child, And someone special to Love someone more than herself. -Lilly

Ask yourself what example of love have you provided to your daughters? Has it been a conditional love of punishment and abuse or an unconditional love of joy, acceptance, support and encouragement! Release that which no longer serves you because it is not your truth. Share your inner being of love with your daughter no matter what it takes from you to release your fears. Be honest when you reflect on what type of mom you are when it comes to your daughter. Maybe it is time to forgive yourself for the choices you made in the past to connect with your daughter again.

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“Our daughters are the most precious of our treasures, the dearest possessions of our homes, and the objects of our most watchful love. -Margaret E. Sangster

Born in 1951 I am of the first generation that was not breast-fed due to the invention of formula. Could that have been the beginning of daughters separating from their moms. The relinquishing of truly being nourished at the breast of our mothers because society deemed it healthier to buy formula! I chose to breast feed my children and I am happy to see the young women of today returning to this simple true connection to their babies.

I believe we as women need to return to the belief that we are goddesses. We are perfect in the bodies we have. We truly possess a beauty because we are the temples for life. We must love our temples for we are setting an example for our daughters. There is no women’s body that is too skinny or too fat. Our bodies are beautiful no matter what shape they are in. My motto is to find that which creates freedom of thought.

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“Calm and still is the water, no birds are in the air, the sun rises slowly to its peak. Trees stand tall, ever so strong, love is never wrong.” -Linda Amato (1994)

I wish all the women of the world a very happy and loving Goddess Day!

Meditate! Pray! Journal!

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LA BELIEVES IN LOVE

 

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My days are filled with a thought that there is a reason for everything. Growing up as a child of an alcoholic father and a detached fearful mother,  I have simply did as I have been told for most of my life. Silence was a means of my survival. Today I have discovered a connection to the Spirit world that embraces my silence as a grown woman. I do wonder how I survived in a world that filled me with delight at a young age, as well as, fear.

Why else would I escape into the books of my youth but to dream. How did I never quarrel with my parents or brother, only because I knew there was no need to. There seems to be so much chaos in life today that I am happy I grew up when I did. Alcohol and Fear made me who I am today. I embrace my life that I have lived with lessons learned and peace in my heart. My path has taken me on one amazing journey that I could never have imagined myself. But here I am living a life that is filled with believable alternatives that come from the universe and fills me with belief in a world that I know is truly great. I am safe and all is well.

I have learned of perception recently and how others perceive even me. I find it intriguing and interesting. There are so many emotions I can claim as my own from anger to disgust but why would I today. I have a question that I pull up from the depths of my soul in situations. Simply, “what would God do?” A small but powerful question that places me in the right frame of mind. God would do nothing but love is the answer. I pray to Him to help me to love as He does. To guide me on this journey that is left, free of the ego/personality that no longer serves me.

I would like to add that my love of the written word led me to be an avid reader but the most benefit I ever received was in writing the written word through the act of taking pen to paper for my entire life. Whether it was a journal, story or poetry I wrote. Even this  blog releases the doubts in my mind that struggle to fill me with fear or worry but which I have no use for in my world today. I came across some poetry from my past and would like to share the following poem that I wrote in the year 1993. I believe it is appropriate at this time in my life once again.

The Change

The pattern of life has been set before our time was ever a question

Can we somehow believe to make a difference with a suggestion

Adults we become, the change we will make.

In the end, all we will feel, is the pain of heartache.

Around and around, year after year, we create an existence.

Only to always believe the world as we know it, needs some assistance.

Kindness and love, can be a special part of this family.

Unfortunately, there is no time to listen to the cries we hear steadily.

There is always tomorrow, but it simply will leave.

Then its too late, the change has not come, so we begin to grieve…

Meditate. Pray. Journal.

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LA BELIEVES IN LOVE

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“The words of a talebearer (a gossiper) are as wounds, and they go down into the innermost parts of the belly”  – Proverbs 18.8, King James Version

According to Merriam-Webster’s Collegiate Dictionary, 11th edition, gossip means:“A person who habitually reveals personal or sensational facts about others” and “rumor or report of an intimate nature.”

We are a society that loves to talk about one another as if it is our right to trash someone else with our words. Look at the celebrities that live in the fish bowl called, “being famous.” Their lives have become entertainment for the world. And what do we do with it but soak in the gossip we hear or read about them as if we know them personally. No wonder we have developed this belief that we as individuals have the right to gossip about another. It matters not if it is our boss, co-worker, parent, spouse, child, friend or family member. If we are trying in some way to make another look bad or feel we want to hurt them with our words, then we are also hurting ourselves. It would be helpful to ask; “Why have I chosen to speak badly about ______________?”

When we choose to enter this world of darkness it is the roar of our ego. The ego roar its ugly head towards us so we can attach to its darkness of; anger, fear, grievances, hatred, jealousy, resentment or unforgiveness. The key is to forgive ourselves first in all situations so that we can forgive others and then maybe not gossip about them. We confront another with stories that may be true or can be lies because it is how we perceive the information that we choose to share. We project onto others words that are not ours to tell especially if they are harmful to someone we know or not know.

Some of us have been raised to believe that this is normal behavior. We were witness to our parents words and actions bullying us or others. As children our parents are our first teachers and we look up to them as the best possible person that we know when young. We are not aware that their beliefs may one day be different from ours. As adults we have the choice to be a being of love and light or to live by the darkness of our ego because we were raised to not know any other way.

Those who believe that they need to gossip are addicted in some way to this behavior because they feel an inner need to speak of others as if they are superior to them. We are all ‘one’ connected by an unseen Divine Intelligence so when we hurt another by our words we are also hurting ourselves as well. Sometimes we need to stop and think before we speak about the words that will come out of our mouth. Not everyone is conscious of how they speak or act or even believe they are doing anything wrong. If in any way this article resonates with you to stop and think about your words and actions, I hope you forgive yourself and become conscious.

“Kabbalah teaches us that consciousness is everything. Not only are we responsible for what we say, but also what we do and what we allow to unfold around us. Consciousness means recognizing negative situations and taking action when necessary to stay connected to the Light.” – Kabbalah Centre

Mediate. Pray. Journal.

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