My role as wife and mom filled me with joy. I imagine as women that stay at home we experience the unique balancing of the stages of our children’s growth process. School, homework, tests, sports, music, dance and the many ways we need to beat the clock daily. Yet we survive it all. Dating today has amazed me raising four children as I never dated but have been with my husband since the 7th grade. Definitely different times. I have one rule and that is who they love I love.
As I witness the expansion of my family with marriage and babies I realize that generationally we are all raised in different surroundings. As such, no one can comprehend another’s childhood and acceptance is needed. Acceptance and love allows us to not be critical or judgmental. This I strive for in my life. I believe the soul aches to be nourished as we enter into all relationships. it matters not who we are in relationship with we are all given the choice of how we react to them. Love needs to be the foundation in all relationships not just for babies or our pets. When we strive for excellence others will also.
When my youngest daughter at seventeen and she left for college my life shifted. It was a time of deep reflection for me as motherhood responsibilities were eliminated. Three of my children moved out of the home at this time and the tears began to fall. I questioned why I had not prepared for this moment. With a deep ache in my heart I prayed to know where I was headed. The word “share” became part of my vocabulary. As a mom for twenty-four years at this point in time, I had shared my love, time, and wisdom with my children. Now what? It is in these times of emotional sadness where we are rewarded with our purpose. An avid book person and a daily woman who took pen to paper, I discovered God definitely had a plan for me.
Visiting my daughter in Arizona at ASU I began to read the book, You Can Heal Your Life by Louise L. Hay. The date was October 10, 2003! The definition of transformation is the act or process of transforming; the state of being transformed..
Life is a daily existence filled with joy, happiness and relationships. Sometimes sadness, anger and fear stems from the relationships in our life today as well as yesterday. We are a society stressed out by the lives we have manifested. Our fears and loves stem from that which happened in our past. Many of us have been victims of mental or physical abuse at one time. We have struggled with abandonment, depression and deep despair. The variety of thoughts that no longer serve us originated in our childhood. Our inner child needs to be comforted, held close and feel loved.
We choose many paths in life on this amazing journey. Still the echoes of yesterday get triggered by others. It is a recurring stress factor in most lives. As we mature into the adults we are destined to be, we look to heal ourselves. There are many self-help books, prayers, meditations, workshops, retreats and mentors that we seek out. The many different avenues we try only lead us to the next one. Personally, I pray, meditate, journal, read spiritual books, use aromatherapy and music daily. In the past I have been to workshops and retreats and have held my own. In learning it is best to share with others. I consider myself a ‘way-shower.’ I have been inspired this past year to embrace adult coloring. In doing so, I have held two adult coloring workshops as well.
It becomes a healing and release for our inner child when we delve calming into the page and color. The simplicity of its memory hugs us from deep within as we forget the world. The action of colored pencil or gel pen stroking the page is a distant memory of our youth. A time in our lives of just being one with an action that was ours and ours alone. The beauty we witnessed as we colored a flower, dog, cat, tree or house. As a child we were able to escape into a world of make believe as we connected to the page we colored.
The benefits of coloring as an adult today is the deep connection to your inner child, it’s meditative, an act of creativity, it will allow you to de-stress and there is a benefit within the action of hand-eye coordination. I find it to be relaxing, fun and my greatest benefit is the silence allows me to join with Spirit. May you take one giant step forward on your path and begin a spiritual practice of coloring daily for at least 20 minutes!
You need to find what works best for you as you enter the world of coloring today as an adult. The morning may be a time of beginning your day by choosing a picture that will set the tone for your day of calmness and being mindful. Try to end your day coloring by unwinding in a relaxed emotional state of mind as you self-soothe.
Pray. Meditate. Journal.
Reflection … Grace … Peace …
I believe I look different. At times I do not know who IAM. It seems to me that IAM serene with clarity in my eyes. I feel vulnerable, open and yet pure. Have I found my grace? There are times I stumble into disbelief that there is this unity of one with the universe that makes me who IAM. Is this a sort of accomplishment?
I think it is the compassion I possess for myself that allows compassion for all. It is the reality of my existence to find peace and love within so that I have this peace and love to offer all. IAM tolerant of myself so that now I can be tolerant of all. It is the patience I have strived for that gives me today patience for all. Somehow it looks like I have achieved conjuring up space that blesses me as a gift to myself. This space I refer to is because I know love allows space to accomplish all one needs to fulfill them in their lifetime. IAM grateful for this gift because with it IAM given a chance to make a difference in any small way that I can through my thoughts, words and actions.
I know of the pain in this world and I have been able to endure mine as well as others because we are all one in the universe. It is the expansion of my own soul to reach out and be of service that guides me now. I find it is wondrous to live through this miracle of life that we are offered. The discovery that I can share with others the importance of balance in life by one being creative and passionate about the life their are living. To find that which stirs the soul to be alive is to find ones reason for being. At times IAM reflective in my own thought process of all that has come before today to lead me to all I can achieve. With that IAM grateful for yesterday and the many teachers I have learned from. Are we not all students in life, as well as teachers? I have made many wonderful happy choices to look back on which allows me to have no regrets.
Today I know the exact moment when the door of my soul opened to tell me to love myself – to love all. In doing so, I learned the true meaning of forgiveness and the realization that one must change oneself. No one can ever change another no matter how much they try. In helping myself to find the love I needed to exist I chose to change myself into journeying my life filled with a deep belief in spirituality.
My life, my beliefs, my love and strength are given to me today because I found my reason for being.
Pray, Meditate, Journal
There is a very thin line I am experiencing between the demons of the first three chakras; fear, guilt and shame when it comes to being held accountable in life to the passions of the soul. I ask are these mine to claim or are they projected upon me? We live in a society where fear, guilt and shame are expected as a part of our life experience. I reject this belief! I AM fearless! I AM guiltless! I AM shameless! There can be no other avenue in my mind at this time.
Whether one is man or women it matters not what is taught or gifted to us by our parents, friends, family, or society. If any of it fills us with fear, guilt or shame we must ask ourselves is it truly ours or is this a projection of how we have been raised or taught to accept as our life experience.
The soul knows best of the passions that will nourish each of us daily. Whether it be our foundation and connection to Mother Nature, the need to create through any form of art that fills us with joy as we move with the flow of life forward and to stand in our own power to know who we are and walk the path we have been guided on is the essence within that is sacred to all individually.
Acceptance of our journey allows a belief that we accept and respect another’s journey by offering unconditional love. It seems such a simple belief to say and know in your heart, ” I love you just as you are!” However, few can truly know this feeling within themselves if they never reject their own fear, guilt and shame. I ask of all to look within and find the love for oneself as you are first so that you can begin to love another truly. Let’s project the feeling of LOVE onto one another!
Just let it go … Meditate … Journal … Pray … Walk … Affirm