In January I spent my time reflecting, renewing, and remembering due to the fact that I had to “Pause” the life I had been living. In doing so, I began to dig deep within to discover what I am not getting that pertains to the rest of my journey. Yesterday or as many of us refer to our life as the past I was a strong daughter, wife and mother. I was determined, focused and wild as to the way I wanted to be, even though at times there was a silent women crying to get out and be seen and heard. My awareness stemmed from my Spirit, I imagine today because I always followed my intuition with prayer and unconditional love.
Suddenly, God stepped in and there was a fork in the road; with tears and many fears I chose to become a better me; to educate myself about the life I could change! The main word I heard all of the time was to “share” with others my journey. As I remember that time in my life at fifty years old I simply went with the flow because there was a passion calling to me from the depths of my being. I felt like a “wild woman,” searching for herself. I had been missing from my own life for a very long time.
Through the written word I released the confusion, doubt and panic, as I filled journal after journal. I was totally clueless as to where I was going or why but the “wild woman” inside seemed to know. All these years later I believe another tremendous shift is upon me because I cannot continue as I have been. It seems I am missing again! I WANT MORE.
What one believes from their own inner dreams is key to this process we call life which I have experienced. Creativity MUST be daily manifested in some form. Without any ritual in life we simply get side tracked. Meditating, keeping a daily journal, praying and acknowledging the beauty of Mother Nature allows one to manifest the desires of the soul.
Here I am wanting to step up to a new “Me,” if that is possible. I am tired of yesterday’s beliefs. I am exhausted by the demands. I am disgusted with the doubts and fears. My freedom is in healing and blessing all.
It is a time for me to respect and honor my past for it has led me to awaken and seek my inner wisdom. Being passionate about learning and sharing with others is key to my reason for being. I am not clueless, I am knowing all that I need to know by the gifts that I have been bestowed with. Life is a true blessing for me because I have no regrets.
I am ready to let the “wild woman” run with me forward once again with open arms.