The Reflection

She walked past the window and out of the corner of her eye she did not recognize herself. She trembled at her reflection. She felt like picking up a stone and flinging it at the window. Then she looked again and there she was. Her eyes were beckoning to her to look deeper.

“Sometimes, you have to look back in order to understand the things that lie ahead.” – Yvonne Woon

She took a deep breath and stood perfectly still as she looked into the window and her life. It flashed right before her eyes at her reflection. Slowly the tears began to fall. The sudden deaths, miscarriages, and divorces she had experienced. The pain of abuse, abandonment, and addiction.

Of course, she had to change. Those memories had to change how she looked to the world unless someone was to look genuinely at her. What would they see? She looked into her eyes and saw her inner self-hanging on by her fingertips. She heard the voice, ‘help me!” As she wiped away a tear, she smiled and walked away!

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In that instant, the door opened to grasp the lessons that were evident in her life. Recently she had discovered that there is a reason for everything that happens in life through this power many have called manifestation. Along the way, there seemed because of this power of expression that there are no mistakes in life. We actually as humans manifest and create our existence by our thoughts, words, and actions. We have superpowers!

“Start each day with a positive thought and a grateful heart.” -Roy T. Bennett

Kindness was the word she reflected on at this moment. All she could gather was that people did not know how to be kind. Why? So she decided to be kind to everyone even strangers. What harm could come from a smile, a hello, maybe just a thank you? She started her mission that very day and was amazed that people were receptive.

It dawned on her that people were engulfed daily in their personal stories. As she reflected on this thought, she agreed because had she not also held her story close to her heart. Today, she realized anyone could change their story. There was a time where she felt the pain and sorrow daily. Not ever realizing that all she had to do is to leave the despair in the past.

She began to embrace that inner self, her inner child that had been hanging on and asked for help. She started to pay attention to those she shared her life. As she traveled to different celebrations and met many people while talking to them, she observed: that there were two kinds of people. Like her in the past, there were many filled with fear. While others mostly were happy and chose to love.

She wanted to learn how to choose love forever and ever. The journey began on that day as she searched through books, courses, retreats, and workshops to discover a new way of being. To change, forgive and release her story. In learning all about the central fear of self that stemmed from the ego, she would also determine where the self of love was. It was a simple two-step belief: choose fear or choose love.

“There is only one thing that makes a dream impossible to achieve: the fear of failure.” -Paulo Coelho

Thinking back to the reflection of herself in the window, she realized she had been filled with fear her entire life. So she asked herself what was she afraid of most of her life? All her worries had begun in her childhood and were not of her belief system today. Cellular memories could be triggered in any situation and pop up right there, and then, and fear would rise she recalled. If there was to be no fear anymore then like her, anyone could change their story. In her heart, she believed that anything was possible.

Today, she knew deep within that there is no reason to fear. Now she looked at the choice of love which was a connection to the self within which is one’s Spirit. She knew that once connected to the Spirit of Self; love was the only option to choose. Spirit has no fear. Spirit is Love. Instead of allowing memory to surface from the past as a trigger all she had to do was embrace the choice of love no matter what was going on because fear is not real.

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Amazingly, she wanted to travel this path and journey in life by choosing only love. She decided to think up a process to do so. Maybe a type of plan to follow she imagined? After all taking action is vital to change as she learned by making decisions with her heart and being logical about this process of life we as humans experience.

How does one connect to their Spirit of Self, she wondered? She took pen to paper after mediating and began with how she changed her life to be free of fear and only to choose love. Knowing today that it was a challenge and that she struggled for years merely to believe that she could.

“One should eat to live, not live to eat.” -Benjamin Franklin

Here is the plan, to taking action, while opening your heart and making logical decisions in life:
1. Speak words of love that are positive and affirm them often.
2. Learning to meditate and sit in silence while going within.
3. Writing in a journal as an act to process the past, forgive, and release it.
4. Setting goals down in a book that begins as affirmative sentences of who you are and how you want to live.
5. Creating Sacred Space in the home, with incense, candles, crystals, and essential oils where the essence and energy of the divine could enter.
6. Journeying outside and embracing the beauty of Mother Nature.
7. Reading of Spiritual books to enlighten the heart to open as to how the ways of ritual and how our ancestors believed.
8. Consuming healthy organic raw foods, superfoods, super herbs and fewer animal products, and more plant-based meals as part of daily consumption.

Meditate. Pray. Journal.
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LA Believes in Love

As I continue writing on the shift of transformation that I was led to I feel blessed to share my journey. After traveling a life experience of loving unconditionally I found that I needed more in life. It was a time when my soul cried out to me. I was led to what I call Part “B” of my journey. A book opened my heart to experience a path that is believable but alternative for many. Yet, in my heart I ached to return to this part of myself.

I did not tread lightly on this new adventure as I flew forward anxious at times and fearful but within I knew I had to move forward. I ask myself always can one book simply allow me to believe as I do today and I must answer it was this one step that led  me to walk many steps.

This book that I speak of is by Louis L. Hay and I discovered it in a little quaint bookstore in Woodstock New York. In reading You Can Heal Your Life, I discovered her Philosophy which I embraced with open arms as well as the ability of affirmations to inspire me daily.

Louise L. Hay writes:

We are responsible for all of our experiences. Every thought we think is creating our future. The point of power is always in the present moment. Everyone suffers from self-hatred and guilt. The bottom line for everyone is, “I’m not good enough.” It’s only a thought and a thought can be changed. We create every so-called illness in our body. Resentment, criticism and guilt are the most damaging patterns. Releasing resentment will dissolve even cancer. We must release the past and forgive everyone. We must be willing to begin to learn to love ourselves. Self-approval and self-acceptance in the now are the keys to positive change. When we really love ourselves, everything in our life works.

I discovered my inner child hanging tightly on to the lids of my eyes when I looked within. I felt her sadness and despair to survive. Clueless to how my childhood, marriage and life experiences had filled a part of me with sorrow I fell in love with her and in doing so, I began to love me just as I was.

After reading this book I wrote affirmations for twenty-one days for twenty-one times until my thought process changed. I still say the same affirmations today that I began with in 2003 daily.

I trust the process of life to bring only good to me. I am safe. All is well. I am as God created me, a spiritual being of love and light. I only create peaceful experiences because I love myself. I am healthy, happy and whole body, mind and soul. There is time and space for everything.

This 246 page book is what enlightened me to open my heart and believe in me. I had many years of despair, depression and doubt in who I was due to the journey. Death has the way of manifesting a desire to know and understand reasons why everything happens. Abuse makes us look within to wonder why we are treated unkindly. Abandonment makes us wonder why we are not loved. Life has this way of allowing us to experience different emotions and fear no matter who we are. I credit this book to open wide the window of my soul to finally be nourished.

There are many books, classes and workshops I have enjoyed and I look forward to sharing with you the power and process of positive thought, word and action. My teachers have been many and I hope you enjoy the ride with me.

Pray. Meditate. Journal

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LA BELIEVES …

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The Fears of Life Eventually Lead us to our Path, Passion and Purpose….

 

I believe with my entire self that anything is possible. I believe in love and kindness for all. I believe I have loved deeply and will always love deeply. It is the part of me that best describes who IAM! There was a time though that I feared life. Why? In retrospect I was lost and scared. I needed to believe first in who I AM. I created a pattern of letting my own self, my truth disappear and be taken from me. Strange words to write I imagine for others to read and yet it is the essence of life one needs to learn to see the beauty of which one can be in life. I have learned that we are all beautiful in our own way. We just glow brighter when we realize our own beauty comes from within. To let another rob us of who we are is a lesson to accomplish in returning to oneself, to simply remember our truth. This pattern we create to survive is our shield, mask or simply not who we believe we are allowed to be because of fear that has been gifted to us by our parents, spouses or society.

The path of life is to love the life you have chosen. To develop a trust that there is a process to all of life and that everything happens for a reason. Those who dare to believe otherwise refuse to learn about themselves. Clearly, I see the pain in life that we ourselves need to create due to the basic belief we choose when we choose fear. Once love replaces fear the pain will be no more. We all at one time need to grow our thoughts, words and actions with a belief that is positive by planting one seed at a time. A wholeness will then develop to set one apart. As we realize there is a part of us that is our spiritual self, we will then discover that these inner parts are deep and profound, as well as, perfect.

We create barriers in our own lives! Who or what is this barrier? It has to be an emotional state one gets into which is not contributing to who one really is. As the carrier of our own emotions we need to release the ideas, thoughts and feelings of yesterdays relationship with life that have become habits today. In doing so, a new beginning will unfold.

There is a definite oneness to life – a unity that connects us all yet we are individual with our own creativity to allow one to progress in life to complete self-harmony. We will then become balanced and have responsibilities through the service of this creativity to fulfill a life daily with this inner wisdom which is our self-harmony. Individually each one of us needs to attain this for ourselves. The barrier created of emotional attachment will be released then forever. The beauty of life is when we choose not to allow despair into  our being and to stop the growth of it to become a strength that is unacceptable. We must grow beyond what we ourselves can imagine.

There comes a time when we desire to travel alone in life without the strength of another. Why? We need to find the strength we possess within! When one flies to the highest change one can experience the discovery of who they can be will be waiting to complete them. This release of emotional attachment to our past is the grandest of complete growth and our independence. We all have the right to travel this journey of knowledge that we crave about who we are and who we can be.

There will then be a positive sight  to cling to and the path will be cleared of the debris of fear that had been gifted from one to another. The  body, mind and soul creates and craves to release the negativity of life that surrounds everyone. This is the needed escape to cleanse the thoughts of yesterday once and for all. The routine of the vicious cycle of life one is accustomed to will then end quite quickly. We cannot stop the fears of yesterday by the thoughts of trying to reason or ask why. That is not up to us IAM told. Embrace the lessons learned and leave the rest.

It is a bit difficult to be able to stand up and believe in oneself. Yet, it is needed and the only way is to follow the inner ache of the heart for more. The truth of who anyone can be is this accomplishment. We are never taught to love ourselves first but to do for others especially as women. It is expected that women must sacrifice their lives for those they love. Men also have the burden of being strong, successful, responsible and insightful to the needs of the women they love. Whether we are woman or man fear is of the ego. Love erases the fears of yesterday and connects one to God. Anyone can get a chance to live a life that can fulfill their desired dreams at any age. A miracle of insight and knowledge, of all one can desire, dream and imagine starts by the simple act of loving oneself.

One may wonder how one begins to love oneself and reach as deep within as they can to find their path, passion, and purpose – their power. It is not easy to relive the past looking for answers to all the questions that start with why! Know that there is a road to travel that is waiting for you. Leave the past where it belongs in the past and become aware of your present thoughts, words and actions. The steps can be many; from diet, to exercise, affirmations, Reiki, acupuncture, massage, meditation, prayer, energy healing and the inner work of taking pen to paper is the greatest therapy I have ever experienced to release all that no longer serves me today. My greatest moments in life have been when I connected to Mother Nature’s beauty; a walk at the beach, a walk around the block, sitting under the moon, swimming in water, even hugging a tree to ground myself to her and fill myself up with her strength. We are one as we all spend time with her daily in any form that we travel. Mother Earth connects us and supports us in all that we choose to be.

Pray, Meditate, Journal

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LA BELIEVES …

My Inner Child

I wonder if at any given time during a persons life experience can the issues of their parents despair resurface?

Can abandonment be heredity?

Can anger be a seed planted to grow from generation to generation?

Aren’t we all One destined to experience a consciousness as One?

Does it not matter the love and support in ones life?

Why do most of us choose the fear and disappointment to cling to?

Why do we choose fear and not Love in most situations?

Why if fear which stems from the Ego and Love from God – do we gravitate towards fear?

What is this attachment we have to fear?

Do we gift our children on their journeys with our fears, unhealed wounds and personal negative beliefs for them to discover their truth?

Is it required that we heal first so they be healed?

What is God’s plan really for everyone?

I fell asleep the other night thinking of my mom. I miss her. I read a long time ago that you are never to go longer than two weeks from seeing your mom. I haven’t seen my mom in 2 years and 3 months. I have spoken to her on the telephone but she has no clue who IAM. Her choices in life have affected mine ever since I can remember. Sadly, there is nothing I can do now that she has dementia. Still I miss her. I miss a woman I never got to know!

It seems that the children of today are reminding me of my childhood at this time. While driving the other day, I imagined I saw her – my inner child jumping for joy and happy. However, I remember a time in the past when she hung on for dear life to survive the despair she suffered from. Today though she is healed from yesterday by the simple act of my acceptance of those I journey this life experience with. Throw in my belief that love is key and anything is possible.

The woman IAM today carries a sadness for the children of today. Many suffer from addictions to drug, alcohol and money. All suffer from the need to be acknowledged for who they are and all that they do. They lack the ability to just be themselves. They are not aware of their power, passion or purpose in life. We as a society are responsible for their belief in needing more, expecting more and at times demanding their right to have more which has wounded them to the depths of their soul. We as a society have forgotten that the best in life is the simplest. A sunrise, sunset, a walk, a hug, laughter or even just a kind word. To be giving without wanting anything in return.

Raised by parents that had very little schooling I have to write today that I had a good childhood. Especially, because back then I was not aware of the labels of society that characterize us into groups today. (My thoughts were that my daddy is acting funny, mommy says he is drunk and mommy and brother are afraid of him, so I have to take care of him.) Something so small separated our family in half. Divided we became – my father and me, my mom and brother. I found through my entire life I could talk to my dad about anything but not my mom. Why? I was told by my dad at ten years of age that my mom was afraid of me. (My ego puffed up that day!) Today it makes sense, as she feared him eventually she came to fear me. No one took the time to ask me if I was afraid though. I had to be afraid at one time because I was a small child. But in my heart I know I was a child who did as she was told period. It was how it was. Children listened to their parents. Catholic school also put the fear of God into me. I felt abandoned by my mom my entire life but did not know the word was abandonment more like I was unloved or unwanted. I had this inner ache that made me feel ‘blue’ at an early age.

I believe today that the hardest obstacles on everyones path is releasing the past no matter how terrible it was and moving away from the fears and pain. To accept and forgive whatever happened no matter what because it has happened and cannot be changed. To now be responsible for ourselves by forgiving what has filled us with despair yesterday. To know we are not to blame because another projected onto us their fears. We CAN choose everyday who we want to be, how we want to be and whether we want to be happy. Everyday is a new day, a beginning, a day away from yesterday that will manifest into tomorrow.

I know that IAM blessed today. I have changed from yesterday but still I travel a path IAM not sure of. IAM searching for what? I ask myself, when will this feeling end? I go back and forth in my mind…should I, could I,would I? What do I want? Who do I want to be? 

I believe IAM returning to a part of me from another life. At this age IAM traveling to discover the depths of my soul. At one time I thought I had arrived but this path is long and filled with lessons so I must simply take one day at a time. I surrender.

Pray, Meditate, Journal…

 Me and Mom…

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GOD DOES NOT BLINK

… Why do we react (blink) to every word that we do not agree with?

Is it possible to not blink as God does?

How do we stop, look and listen without getting into a confrontation?

God does not blink is my mantra now when someone believes they have all the answers and know everything. It allows me to smile at myself and realize only God knows what is going on in any situation at any time.

Kabbalah teaches that we react to others in situations and create chaos and pain to enter the relationship by getting into a conversation that can only be deemed confrontational. The battle begins and the words that are spoken and painful in some form or way once said cannot be taken back The tears well up, the anger is ignited and fight begins. Everyone believes they are right. What if what one is arguing about is truly of no importance but actually a waste of time, energy and words. In reality it all comes down to someone being right and someone being proven wrong.

In the past I prayed when I felt a confrontation was upon me. I felt the attack and the words of abuse but I centered myself and in my head I prayed a Hail Mary. It calmed me and took me out of the moment so that I could not react and release the other person from what they wanted, which  was a fight to prove they were right and I was wrong. It is very easy to forget though and sometimes before I knew it I was talking too much and getting too heated. Talking too much and feeling the heat rise is another lesson to learn to be silent and not confrontational. Sometimes we all need to let go and let God …

God Does Not Blink

Being abusive towards someone by the words we speak is just as abusive as being able to hit someone. What constitutes Abusive language? What constitutes Controlling language? What constitutes Condescending language? What constitute Critical language? What constitutes Judgemental langugae? What constitutes Negative language? What constitutes Opinionated language? The answer is a single word that coves all of the above – ignorance.