LA BELIEVES IN LOVE

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The purpose of my existence has been to love and be loved. I never questioned any other way of being. I simply knew to love. It mattered not the situation or how I was treated my choice was to love. At times when fear crept into my world I wrote poetry or took to my journal to make sense of others in my life being unkind. When I became a mother thirty-eight years ago the meaning of my being here was confirmed. To nurture and nourish with unconditional love was the key that unlocked the despair from yesterday.

There was a part of me that understood the natural essence of life and how to provide with my body through natural childbirth and breast feeding a cord that would sustain us both. This wonder in my first son was a miracle with my husband that we would create a total of four times. The memories I have stored away that I treasure from the very moment I met these babies has sustained me to know my purpose. I believe that they set the stage for what I do today in more ways than one can imagine. As a single mom my children kept me sane. I realized early that I never owned them and that I was simply the means of their existence and foundation.

I deeply loved the responsibilities that came with this new title I proudly wore that I was chosen to be the mother of Tory, Tina, Nicholas and Jessica. Dinner time was family time where we gathered together to share our day and to laugh. You may wonder if there was conflict, rebellion and disagreement between these siblings and society. I fool you not and share that we existed as a family bonded by a mother that saw no wrong in her children. Boundaries were a key ingredient in their world as they grew up. Do not think that they did not call to my attention the judgmental and critical attitude of their teachers. Still, I stood firm in my belief in my children no matter what.

Children learn by love and support which they received abundantly. Who they have grown to be in essence as husband, father, wife and mother is critical to how they were raised. The two youngest ones who are not married yet still have time to choose how they will approach the world of being a spouse or parent.

What they have accomplished today is their freedom to live in a world where many have fallen victim to drugs. Is this the reality of a society that has fallen victim to substances, due to the fact of pain, choice or a prearranged contract? Why does one choose to be addicted and another not? Only God knows the answer to that.

In reality, I am a child of an alcoholic but I chose not to be one. Is there a lesson here that I simply learned that I grasped at a young age? Can it be that what I was witness to was part of the plan? As we are all children at one time raised by our parents very early on, I wonder who is the teacher and who is the student?

Today as I blog my baby has turned thirty years old. I am amazed at how time is the one thing we can not stop or change or return to in our reality of life. Time does not wait for anyone. Children will grow up with or without love I imagine. Although I do believe as a mom that my greatest and only reason for being is to love these children under all circumstances.

Who I am today on this path that I travel is because of them, my husband and my parents. Many have travelled along with me and some have stayed while others ventured away. Know that we are all here to light the way for another with love.

Transformation is next…

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LA BELIEVES IN LOVE

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The innocence of my life was that I loved. The path of my life has led me on a journey that I never questioned or wondered about. Placing one step in front of the other I walked forward trusting and believing in my destiny. I imagine at times that fear gripped me and tried to delay that which I needed to learn by the power of  my ego to fill my head because of the situation of my home life. The journey has a way of allowing us to stumble at times and pick ourselves up and move forward on this path we call life.

Raised in to believe in God, I went to Catholic school where real nuns in black dresses and huge rosary beads put fear and belief in sin in everyone. That I loved was simply my foundation of being taught to be a good girl. The rituals of my religion I embraced with open arms. Prayer, church and confession were weekly if not sometimes daily. Somehow when I was younger the air on Sunday was different to me. The sounds and people on a Sunday were different, as well.  I cannot explain it but Sunday was a holy day and a family day. The silence in the air I imagine today was because no one worked and all the stores were closed. It was peaceful to go to the Avenue and find that every store was closed. This was a time when there were no malls imagine that! My dad would go to the bakery and after church we had cheese Danishes and apple turnovers. When I was older and no longer in Catholic school I skipped church and walked the Avenue. Once in high school there was no one to answer to and the taste of freedom too great. Needless to say, I held fast to my prayers but the rituals of my childhood slipped away. I was too busy now.

What does the word love really mean? Love in the dictionary states a profoundly tender, passionate affection for another person. A feeling of warm personal attachment or deep affection, as for a parent, child or friend. Such innocence of affection led me to marry my childhood boyfriend and begin one amazing ride. We grew up during these past forty-four years together in our marriage. We truly lived an existence that was separate at times and filled with emotion at others. I was taught by my parents as he was taught by his about how to be in a relationship. I cannot speak for his childhood because I was not living in his home. Mine although briefly described prior to this page, I saw a father who cherished his wife although he scared her to death because of his addictions. It was this witnessing of separation between them as my brother and I went with my dad everywhere and during the last thirty years of his life it was I who spent time with him and cherished him. My mom’s detachment due to fear of him and me allowed her to favor my brother so the lesson I learned was to favor no one.  My husband and I had created a separate existence through the years while raising four children. I find this interesting to realize today because our roles somehow reflected a part of our own upbringing.

Blessed to be a stay at home mom it was my husband who has provided everything for our family. His drive and desires enabled us to live a life filled with abundance. A man of many talents he is a builder of homes today because he started his journey in construction but at one time he owned and ran two restaurants, a resale automobile business and a record label, as well as, being a manager for our daughter’s singing career.

Still I wonder always when did the innocence leave. Is it simply part of living at this time on planet earth that somehow, somewhere more became a requirement to exist. Why did we choose to go further than our parents in every way? Was it offered to us because of our education, beliefs or simply the fact that change and growth is part of the plan for everyone. An example I think of was that I grew up without a car. At one time we had seven cars in our home. Another would be; I grew up with a telephone only in the kitchen. Our house had one in every bedroom and there were five, living room and even in our master bathroom which brought it to a total of eight. Is this all considered progress, want or necessity.

Now that we are alone in our large house we have only one television in the living room and we have downsized to five telephones and three cars. My life is abundant and yes I am grateful beyond words for the ride i have been allowed to experience. My yesterdays have taken me to a place of deep understanding that there is a reason for everything and there are no mistakes ever in life.

To come … the children!

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LA BELIEVES …

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It has come to my attention that many do not believe as I do. I wonder if this is the inner workings of my soul that I have embraced to believe as I believe. My age is of no concern today because in the depths of my heart I always followed the desire to love and be loved. I imagined as a young girl that there was a vastness to life and learned early to be in love with the surroundings of Mother Nature on a daily basis. The warmth of the sun on my face, the freedom to walk around the block, to swim in the ocean, climb a tree or just look up at the stars and moon in the night. What do I believe that is so different from another stumps me.

I believe …

IAM a being of love and light. That I have a right, passion and purpose to be here. I trust that there is a process to life and that there is a Divine Intelligence that travels my path with me. I have the power to know that my thoughts words and action create my life. The emotions that flow from my heart fills me with compassion and love for others. As a mother and grandmother I know I must be of service to those in my family, my inner circle, as well as those outside my circle because we are all one. I have noticed that there is an inner wisdom that can be heard, seen and felt when I meditate daily. I know IAM an eternal being with a soul and that this body is just a vehicle for me to be like God and co-create my life with God! This wisdom that rests within is my right to discover and adhere to. I have lived many lifetimes and the lessons learned are part of my existence today. It is my right as a being with free will that I can travel through meditation, journey through the written word and learn as much as I desire to connect me with All That Is! I imagine that this is strange to others but comforting to me. I know that love is the key to life as well as forgiveness of myself and others. I embrace my life today as a life filled with wonder and amazing vibes of love because I believe that I live as a spiritual being in a place I call heaven on earth.

I cannot believe any other way and in doing that which inspires me to share with others I have studied simply to be able to empower those who desire love, light and healing in their lives.

Are your beliefs so different from mine? Take time to think what you believe is true for you.

The following is excerpted from Making Believers: Connect to the Light within…

SPACE

We all need a daily moment to find our space

To support one silently waiting is God’s grace

An accomplished moment of emptiness in ones mind

Shall renew ones ability with the desire to be kind

As one begins to dwell in time that is ones own

One can fulfill their destiny if they believe in the unknown

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LA BELIEVES…

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Today I Embrace My Path…

 

As I sit at the table on my deck in the backyard on this beautiful sunny morning I feel connected to a Divine Intelligence. Birds are singing in the tress and the water is flowing by ever so silently. There seems to be a stillness in the air that is comforting. I understand that I need to be part of life to live life. In reality I am more comfortable being alone because I enjoy the company of the universe. I am neither bored nor feel as if I am missing something. It is this beauty and wonder I feel for life that surrounds me and fulfills me. It simply is the need for nothing. I have everything I can think of. This simplicity and beauty of life fills me with joy. I am abundantly fulfilled.

I feel protected and satisfied on this path I am following as I am aligning my life’s goals and purpose. There is a time for all things in one’s life if one is patient, honest, truthful and noble. The part I am learning today is that I must join the human race. This is not easy for me because I have comforted myself in the silence of a lifetime by being a spiritual loving and giving woman. I believe that I have grown beyond a need or reason to teach my children any more. They have learned all they can from me. Now they make choices as adults in their life that they are offered by the universe. Sometimes they just need that connection to me as a means of verification.

I am a child myself learning about all that I can be. I need at this time to play and fill with joy at all that is waiting for me to embrace; to see life through the eyes of children again. My dreams are joyfully filled with wonder by my grand babies as well as the flow of water that I am witness to every day. I am offered an emotional energy that fills me with intuition by the waters of my dreams and daily existence. Water nourishes my soul as it offers me a spiritual alignment with the powers of the universe. I find this to be a connection to the depths of my soul. I am overwhelmed with the emotions of my life at times because they are not what I had expected from myself. It is the ability of feeling connected with all and not separate from but whole that is harmonious.

My strength has always been my children. My greatness is them. I miss the joy and love I surrounded our days with as a mom in the past. Yes, there are telephone calls and questions daily but the time to move on past the walls of just being a mom is now. This change of being a creative, productive woman is upon me in its fullest capacity. I believe I have completed being the woman I was yesterday only because of the strength my children possess today to fulfill their own paths. I have nurtured and nourished them with unconditional love and I am aware that I have to let them fly out into the world and do their own work now.

I notice that my soul/personality is screaming extremely loudly to be heard. My soul is satisfied by my choices and is brightly lit. It is my personality my heart that is bruised and wounded but the comfort of my soul is stronger than the discomfort my personality is going through. The wonder of my whole existence is now the knowledge within which is the truth of how I am and all that I am capable of. If my emotions are bruised it is because as a human being it is part of the journey of life to feel and experience that which we need to learn from. It is fine for me to acknowledge the pain within caused by a life I chose to exist in. For now I believe I need to cleanse myself of that which I no longer need in my life. I will then be nourished by the spirit of my soul.

All in all I am accepting of the changes I have made and realize how the strength and belief in oneself brings one power to be. At times I move slowly and seem to revert  back of my own free will to old thoughts. There are endings and beginnings in life and a new beginning can only start with an end of the old, a sort of completion is required as I accept what is today.

I myself look for reasons and excuses when I know the truth yet cannot acknowledge it is so. I am in a state of suspension, a limbo as I wait for my true purification of yesterday. As a balanced, enlightened soul I am dwelling on the change of my lifetime and emotionally I worry of its effect on those I love.

I am not a different me. I am a true me. My choices are for me and the universe. To be joined in unity with love. I see we are all one, all connected. The pain caused to one hurts all. To believe otherwise or that there is separateness is to deceive oneself. There can only be love in life to belong to each other. With no love, no kindness, and no joy one’s light deems.

I believe that the greatest lesson is that change is healthy and required to find one’s way. To love with pain and knowledge of despair is true love. The pain is the emotional aspect of rejection because the blood of love pumps through our veins. My soul requires no answers or reasons why, for a new life is possible once the old one no longer works.

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LA Believes

Be Kind

Be Careful

Be Yourself 

Words on the back of a white tractor trailer truck in front of me the other day.

i found myself repeating the above words over and over to myself all day long. With a smile I knew in my heart that;  I am kind and I definitely for the past 15 years have grown into being myself. I may look the same and do the same things but I have transformed into more of a Spiritual being finally. Then I stop and ask myself, “this is who you have always been, right?” The answer I receive is, “YES” but, and there is always a but, in a silent way.

The rights of my being have finally been shown to me since 2004 by the choices and changes I started to incorporate into my daily life. I discovered the following belief system and hugged these beliefs tightly in my heart to gather the strength to do God’s work. I embraced the blueprint of my soul by the transformation I thirsted for.  In learning all that I have, I am free today, to that which no longer serves me.

i have the right to be here!

i have the right to feel!

i have the right to act!

i have the right to love and be loved!

I have the right to speak and hear truth!

i have the right to see!

i have the right to know!

I believe and trust that there is a process to life and sometimes I may not be “careful” –  this I am working on. I know that there is a reason for everything. The truck, the words, all in front of me was for me to take a second and embrace the powers that be. The power of the Universe, God, Divine Intelligence, Angles, Spirit Guides are with me. I am never alone and this fills me with love and joy for the unknown which is greater than I AM!

My wish for all is to be blessed with the renewal of this time of year through Easter or Passover. Happy Holidays!

 

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