THE KEYS OF FREEDOM

As a lover of the written word, I have spent my entire life taking pen to paper. Some may call it a form of therapy. I believe it is a release of that which no longer serves me that my mind clings to. In 1984, I began the journey of writing poetry to deal with stress in my life. For years I rarely felt the neeed to write a poem but more a type of journal writing when needed. In December of 2016 I was at a workshop with my teacher Deborah King in California. As I normally start my day with prayer, meditation and writing I started to write the following poem. I hope you are inspired by my words. My release. My form of therapy!

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I almost lost myself
“The Me of Me!”
In my Spirituality
I became numb to myself
“My Inner Reality!”
Never again,
Shall I stuff down deep within
“My Personality!”

I have laughed …
I have cried …
I needed to die …
From the woman I created
To please those who chose to berate
The brilliance of my light
But the darkness I dove into
Showed “Me.”
I needed to fight
For, “The Me of Me!”
To set “Me” Free …

Freedom is essential
I clearly now see
As a child raised in fear
I silenced the “Me” without a tear
I became a wife on a journey
Of discovery to finally hear

The voice of my inner child’s cry;
“Embrace me for I do not want to die,
Pull me free from the depths of this despair,
For I cannot breathe without your care …”

So I held onto her fingertips
From deep within my being
Knowing it was time to pull her
Up from an inner sorrow,
I was witnessing …

Struggling at first
because of the years
Of neglect of my inner beliefs
I discovered a voice to unravel
“The Me of Me …”

I had roared loudly as a mom
Filled with love, joy, and happiness
Proud of the honor to be chosen
So I became fearlessly
An advocate for those who needed “Me …”

My sanity I was gifted!
As their mom, I was bold
My Passion!
My Purpose!
Allowed me to unfold

With joy for the chores of my life
Stronger beyond even I knew,
I was able to handle all strife …

One may wonder of the time needed
To hug “Me” into becoming my Truth
A week …
A month …
A year …
For “Me” it seemed a lifetime
Of Journaling – Reading – Writing Poetry
By releasing my fears and finally
Allowing the tears!

Still, I subdued the real “Me of Me,”
Behind my Spirituality
Once again I silenced a part of my
Inner child’s laughter, joy, and happiness
Through this new sacred personality!

Today I believe as a spiritual being
I am here to experience my human creation
As I am,
The Divine Presence of God
In action
The “I” that “I AM,”
The “Me of Me.”
Finally …

Thankful!
Grateful!
Joyful!
For the lessons, I learned
Offers an acceptance for the
Sacrifices made,
By those who loved “Me,”
As I loved “them.”
Whether they be family
or friend.

I was aware of a vast resource
on the Ring of Keys!
The Discovery of my
Key of Freedom has
Opened the door
For me to experience more

Which then led “Me” to the
Key of Forgiveness!
To move forward on the path of my
Intended life experience
Once I embraced the Key of Forgiveness!
I experienced the
Key of Gratefulness!

Love…
Light…
Laughter…
Are the Keys to all spiritual passion,
And where I discovered my purpose,
The reason I was born!
The joy of being whole
Now living a large life
No longer being small

The memories of the “smallness,”
I achieved can be released
Today,
I know the path I traveled
Whether silent or not,
fueled my desires

My soul needed to feel nourished
and to be nurtured
Immediately!
So that I could spiritually divorce myself
from an unhealthy
Reality!

Still, I continued to struggle
With who I now was
To believe I could
Grow “Me” to be a better “Me,”
Filled with insight and a new reality!

It seems my belief of going within
For answers to my pain
Ignited a “Love of Self,”
I cherish, which erased
The belief I was insane…

Although I question if this has always been
“The Me of Me…”
Just silently waiting to claim “Me.”
As one who knows that everyone
Has the right to be free!

It is the core of my essence
I’ve connected with
joyfully…
Allowing my truth to unfold
courageously!

My soul is aware it is
nourished beyond and above
More than I could have ever imagined
Through the practice of
Prayer…
Meditation…
Intention…
And Love!

Pray. Meditate. Journal.

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What a Great Ride it Has Been

             “In youth we learn; in age we understand.” – Marie Ebner-Eschenbach

This morning I opened my eyes and thought of the amazing ride I have been on. I sat up in bed and fell into my morning ritual; I meditated, prayed and contemplated on being sixty-five years old. I’m amazed by this lifetime I have journeyed. My personal ride began with what I labeled as a child of this inner feeling I called, “the blues!” Today I imagine it was just fear as a child that confused me. Being scared, afraid or terrified at a young age was the norm such a long time ago. Still the feelings sit deep within my heart even today. Tears can overflow at the inner conflict for my inner child of yesterday. There was a time I buried her deeply only to discover I could not breathe without her. I realize today that fifteen years ago I embraced her holding on to my eyelids and offered her love. It was time for her to resurface and know her truth. We began a new ride. The memories of my youth are filled with drinking fighting and abusive behavior between my dad and mom. Fear filled our home only because Friday nights dad came home drunk. Mom became embarrassed and totally afraid of him!


“You must learn to make your whole world your school.” -Martin H. Fischer

I know that I am not the only woman to have grown up in a house with an alcoholic/manic-depressant or fearful/critical parent. In fact, I realize as a child I had no understanding of these types of labels. I did not know the ride would take me through abandonment, abuse, fear, pain, tears, death and lies over and over again. Death is a part of life but sudden unexpected deaths are terrifying at any age. My only brother to die by a drunk driver, my oldest nephew to be murdered then my beloved dad to  die of lung cancer. I know that at times there was great laughter and love going up but coming down that roller coaster  could almost make me topple over and crash when the fears arose.

 “Why be anything other than good? Why do anything other than love!” –Johnathan Dahl

 However, here I sit as a whole woman, loved, fulfilled, happy and amazed with gratitude for the experiences of my lifetime. I live a good life! I admit I struggle still today when those I love are unkind, critical or judgmental of one another. It is those times that my inner child comforts me with a memory of me climbing a tree at McCarren Park, swimming at Coney Island or just drinking Mountain Dew and eating pretzels on the stoop. It was the simplicity of yesterday that encourages me to love unconditional. I’m thrilled with the joyous memories of my childhood today because those were the moments that pushed me forward. The fearful dark memories are drifting further and further away from my inner sight.

            “If you don’t like how things are, change it! You’re not a tree.” – Jim Rohn

I blame no one for the ride I chose to take because at this time in my life I believe I am an amazing  wife, mother and grandmother. How did I get to this time in my life believing that my life is wonderful? It always comes back to the simple parts of the ride I believe. When my dad was dying he looked at me and said, “I had a wonderful life so don’t cry for me because you are gong to die one day too!” That was in 1998 and finally I get it!

At forty years old he attempted suicide and lived the next thirty years in and out of mental institutions supported and loved by me and my husband for anything he needed. Weekly visits were the norm when he was not hospitalized but living in an adult home facility and happy no matter what. A true loved of Mother Nature he taught me to respect her as well. With forgiveness, acceptance, kindness, unconditional love, and not taking anything personal I made these beliefs my tools. Meditation, prayer and writing in my journal are my supplements to the ride. Knowing I am connected and blessed are my gifts today.


  “Life shrinks or expands in proportion to ones courage.” – Anais Nin

There will always be ups and downs because there is so much to learn in the greatest of classes in life called relationships. To love, hate, fear, and anger are the cornerstones of all relationships until we end any form of confrontation, control, and criticism. There came a time on my journey when the abandonment issues of my mom settled deep within to thug at my heart. After repeated abandonment episodes like her moving to Puerto Rico because her son had died and there was no reason for her to stay in New York I would cringe at her words for a very long time. It was my dad who told me she was not a smart woman and to forgive her. Today I know I am the person I am because of her and that I would not have been able to know my gifts and talents if she remained by my side. Could this have been a contract we agreed on prior to birth?

When I discovered what an amazing ride I have experienced because of the choices and changes I made, I filled with a deep sense of gratitude. At this age I know when I sit and color with gel pens for an hour or so my inner child is happy. If I choose to take a walk, read a good book or practice some yoga poses I have reconnected with the simplicity of life that fills me with joy. When I share my wisdom with others through counseling, workshops, blogging and talking I am being of service. The wisdom we all possess rests deep within and needs to be connected to so that peace can be part of the ride. The time will come when everyone gets the chance to get off their amazing roller coaster ride and live a loving, peaceful existence. Know it is possible as I do! When you exit you will breathe a feeling of contentment and smile as you remark, “what a great ride it has been!”

Meditate! Pray! Journal!

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LA BELIEVES …

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It has come to my attention that many do not believe as I do. I wonder if this is the inner workings of my soul that I have embraced to believe as I believe. My age is of no concern today because in the depths of my heart I always followed the desire to love and be loved. I imagined as a young girl that there was a vastness to life and learned early to be in love with the surroundings of Mother Nature on a daily basis. The warmth of the sun on my face, the freedom to walk around the block, to swim in the ocean, climb a tree or just look up at the stars and moon in the night. What do I believe that is so different from another stumps me.

I believe …

IAM a being of love and light. That I have a right, passion and purpose to be here. I trust that there is a process to life and that there is a Divine Intelligence that travels my path with me. I have the power to know that my thoughts words and action create my life. The emotions that flow from my heart fills me with compassion and love for others. As a mother and grandmother I know I must be of service to those in my family, my inner circle, as well as those outside my circle because we are all one. I have noticed that there is an inner wisdom that can be heard, seen and felt when I meditate daily. I know IAM an eternal being with a soul and that this body is just a vehicle for me to be like God and co-create my life with God! This wisdom that rests within is my right to discover and adhere to. I have lived many lifetimes and the lessons learned are part of my existence today. It is my right as a being with free will that I can travel through meditation, journey through the written word and learn as much as I desire to connect me with All That Is! I imagine that this is strange to others but comforting to me. I know that love is the key to life as well as forgiveness of myself and others. I embrace my life today as a life filled with wonder and amazing vibes of love because I believe that I live as a spiritual being in a place I call heaven on earth.

I cannot believe any other way and in doing that which inspires me to share with others I have studied simply to be able to empower those who desire love, light and healing in their lives.

Are your beliefs so different from mine? Take time to think what you believe is true for you.

The following is excerpted from Making Believers: Connect to the Light within…

SPACE

We all need a daily moment to find our space

To support one silently waiting is God’s grace

An accomplished moment of emptiness in ones mind

Shall renew ones ability with the desire to be kind

As one begins to dwell in time that is ones own

One can fulfill their destiny if they believe in the unknown

Meditate. Pray. Journal.

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LA BELIEVES…

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Feel the Fear and Do it Anyway… We all have a mountain to climb!

There is a feeling of awareness in our personal daily possibilities which will lead us to our destiny. To find the truth and passion in a life’s goal is to find love and completion towards one’s destiny. One must accomplish love to return back to all that has already been deemed true. It is the love of self in life that opens the gates of freedom to be. Simply to be all that one can be like a star in the sky that is bright even in the night for all to behold. The light of love encompasses the beauty of love that cannot be denied. To believe in any other light or reason to see beauty is to deny the universe. One who is blind to love is blind to a true life experience and will live to learn again on earth.

To comprehend that love is light and light is love is to find a passion that ignites the love within. To accomplish respect and wonder at its power enables expansion which is belief of the process of life. These words by Leo Buscaglia are a truth in life. “Each of our acts makes a statement as to our own purpose.” To find ones purpose there is no where to look but within our hearts, thoughts and speech. If we see with the eyes of love, hear with the ears of love and speak with words of love we can only then find love for ourselves and for life. It is the totality of the completion of life lived in and with love that opens the gates of heaven on earth. There is wisdom to be gained from yesterday to absorb and to create today that which will allow tomorrow to manifest and set one free. This is the only way to live by bringing the past into the future intertwined with the present so that the wheel of life glows forever. It is total belief in what we think, say and do; yesterday and today that will manifest tomorrow.

Personally, I do not want to be upset about negative words inflicted on me by others. I have to work very hard to keep myself afloat in a life IAM striving for as a spiritual woman. Constantly, I repeat positive affirmations to clear my head of any negative words. I ask to be shown the way so that I may be fulfilled always and not to let despair be part of my existence. I believe now that my new beginnings will only start when I can accomplish constant positive thought by being accepting and loving of all. Negativity drains my life, my essence, my reason for being. I find that the lesson of patience is what I need to cling to for it is the resulting change and life IAM to live. I understand this and comprehend this to be the truth and unity of life. IAM one with the universe now and must believe in all IAM given. 

I embrace my thoughts of creativity with love and kindness daily. I see the beauty in all as I expand into the world of deep inner wisdom. I find the need to abundantly share with all as I become receptive to the fears of another. As a unit in the unity of life I have become one with all and love abounds in my soul as I bless the negative, fearful people in life that need to find peace, kindness and love within themselves first.

What nourishes me is being creative. It takes self-discipline to continue daily on a creative path. IAM blessed to have the greatest of gifts – TIME!  As I travel a mystical spiritual road filled with this inner wisdom to nourish and sustain me, I create new ideas and learn the cleansing of yesterday is the only way for tomorrow to be pure. Daily I look at the world with the eyes of love and try to calm the fears of all. I have been given the ability to realize materially I have all one can ever need. It is this new beginning in life that IAM drawn to as it feeds my spiritual and mental capacities. I believe much is not necessary to obtain in life but the search for truth and honesty. To in any form simply to help another is my goal. Through books, writing, speech or a thought of love it is all about the strength and power of words. I believe IAM a woman of words at this age in my life. I refer to myself as totally alternative in belief because IAM of good health and detached by choice in a life that I adore daily because of a connection to the Universe; God, Mother Nature’s beauty, Angels, Archangels, Spirit Guides, Ancestors and totem animals. Today, I consider myself as a woman who observes life.

It is the emotions of life that cause me to dig deep within to feel the sorrow in life that exists which creates pain and this cannot be denied. It is this pain I crave to help another release. It seems so small that any act of love will grow and prosper in life to the brightest of lights for another when love is expressed. The acceptance of this belief that love is needed allows love to fill me to bursting. I can only be a vehicle in life that can travel the roads with the keys of life opening the doors that are waiting to allow love in by the knowledge IAM given. I believe it is this knowledge and wisdom IAM here to share that is as necessary as the air I breathe.

PRAY, MEDITATE, JOURNAL

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LA BELIEVES …

The Fulfillment of Space

“Know that we all have a path and purpose to seek…”

I have noticed that many people are so filled with fear that panic sets in constantly. These are the ones who are clueless and unable to accept that there is a process to life. How do we learn to love and accept that all things are possible? It is this freedom that waits for all. It is the insight we need to possess that we can all make a difference that encourages love daily as the main ingredient that is required.

I believe there is no reason to hurt anyone by our actions or words for we then create pain in our own lives. The pain that fills one so much that they need to inflict pain onto someone else does tremendous damage to them. It is this vicious cycle they live within that they cannot escaped from. They are living in a bleak world letting no light in! No joy can rise to comfort them, as they dig deeper into their own fears. Love, honesty and trust in the universe are what they need to set them free. It cannot be attained by their refusal of letting love lead the way.

They grasp this belief that they need a say in life even if their words are hurtful or unkind. To travel a road that is rocky and twisted because they live by what they believe is the only way. The refusal to seek another way or another choice eliminates that which is needed to fill them with joy and kindness. The blinders in life they refuse to take off do not allow them to see that anything one can dream is possible.

It is this inner refusal to trust the process of life because in reality they do not believe there is a process. They are so unbalanced in their souls journey that their soul is buried deep in pain unnourished. Their ego is strong and fully heard by all. It is this lack of balance by their negative beliefs in life that create fear and pain daily for them to project onto others. An enormous amount of change is required by the choices they are offered which can make a difference if they are willing. Unfortunately, many refuse to choose that which will comfort and nourish their soul. When one prays, meditates, journals, reads spiritual books change will come.

It may also be considered it is simply not their time to learn because they have refused for so long that this lifetime may come to an end before its time because they need another life experience to grasp their lessons to set them free. I believe time is of no importance but to live a life empty of love, joy, kindness and giving creates wounds of the heart.

Pray, Meditate, Journal

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LA BELIEVES …

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“it is a requirement to accept life and love the life you have…”

 

The spirit of our soul cries for us and gives us opportunities we push aside. It is the way of our lives to doubt ourselves and believe we are not good enough or not capable of fulfillment. We refuse to accept our own voices in the night. The stillness and silence one needs to achieve can and will open many doors to show us the way. They say dreams come true but only if we realize it is our dream and one we can make true by being honest and truthful to our passion. Not for the monetary accomplishment but for the freedom and happiness in doing what is important to us as well as being able to help others. I believe this is the truth we all need to search for. It is the whole essence of whom each and everyone can be. To realize we can free ourselves by that which we acknowledge as the path of our own fulfilled destiny. Never to forget there are reasons for everything daily and there are many teachers we can learn from.

When we choose to pay attention and meditate we will fill with awareness which gives us insight to see the clarity of our own existence. To close our eyes to see is the greatest step in life. A true lesson in all that one can be is to be accepting of the connection to a greater existence. That which is part of the universe of life will allow one to be grateful, appreciate the beauty shown and to be then encouraged by that which belongs to us. To see and grasp this while we fill with love, understanding and compassion to create enlightens our souls. Not to waste time and dream but to dream and create is an accomplishment. To know we belong to a universe that smiles down on us as we are watched and guided on our way.

Our soul craves to express its wholeness, to feel free by the act of being productive, curious to learn as much as we can and to be nourished by that which is our inner wisdom. Find your place to be in silence, to gather up your resources and surrender to the powers that be. In doing so, you will become like a child filled with joy once you accept the wisdom that rests within.

Every soul desires and craves solitude to fly on its own.

Every destiny is being fulfilled daily as we live in spirirtual oneness with the universe.

Everyone needs to realize their power and give thanks for it.

All need to release their emotional self so that a cleaning can take place.

All will discover that their emotional energy and intuition are part of their life’s path. 

The changes will become vast once the soul becomes whole. It is the sense of being united with all that will fill one up. One will become sure footed in their direction and path in life. They will be given an intense feeling of enormous change in life when they are ready. Change comes to all when change is requried. To fulfill the burning desire in the heart one needs to trust and believe that all things are possible. All will be comforted to know that as their dream unfolds into reality they will fill with abundance and gravitate towards the light of love.

It is the work that needs to be done to learn and create a spiritual life that will lead one to complete their journey.

It is the trust and belief in the universe that allows one the strength to be aware of the depth of the sea and its vastness for comfort. Being drawn to water connects one with being drawn to the flow of life; its beauty, strength and calmness. We all need to connect to the elements for sustenance at one time on this journey; the earth, water, fire and air. At that time one can ask anything of the universe and be granted what their heart desires because we are one. This is to be accepted and acknowledged as part of the miracle of life.

Let your dreams be a window that opens in the night to guide and comfort you.

Pray, Meditate, Journal

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LA Believes

I received a word this past week that allowed me to look at my life differently! It was just a whisper, gently heard from within but the word “PAUSE” stopped me dead in my tracks. I had to agree as I smiled, “yes, my life is on pause…” Simple and clear it was time for me to reflect, renew, and remember. I had always just moved forward in life asking no questions just going with the flow. I remembered that I never wanted for anything yet I received everything I could ever want or imagine.

As I write this Sunday, I sit in the window seat of our cabin in Upstate, NY watching the snow fall ever so gently on the mountains and treetops that surround me. It is silent in the cabin I have named, “The Palace,” as I breathe in all that I am witness to. I believe I have a connection here, on this land to Mother Earth which started as a child. As I reflect on yesterday I see that little girl I was, learning about the beauty of Mother Earth from her dad, who was an avid walker. I remember we walked everywhere our feet could take us because my dad did not own a car, otherwise we took buses and trains.

We walked through the streets of our neighborhood, the streets of Manhattan – even the Bowery and it was at a young age I learned of the homeless and forgotten men and women of our world. I was amazed and a little afraid at the men and women who approached us, but my dad told me to hold his hand. I would be okay, these people might have been doctors, lawyers, nurses and they just lost their way but they would not harm us.

The greatest of these memories is the times we went to Coney Island and a neighborhood park in Greenpoint, New York which I believed was called McCarron Park. It was there that my brother and I had our own trees that we had chosen and which we climbed and hugged when we visited. I would try and run so fast once we entered the park to try and beat my brother to our trees.

I no longer walk as much as I have in the past, I no longer climb trees, but I do still hug them! This land that we own 155 acres renews me and I believe my appreciation, my love and joy in Mother Earth stems from my dad.

This past week I journeyed to the life I have lived to reflect on who I am today. I learned that I need to renew myself, to pause and just remember how great my life is and has been. This I believe in my heart but I know it stems from deep within my soul.

I also remembered this week that as a little girl, a teen, a young woman, wife and then mother I did want to be a writer for I have always been an avid reader. I wanted to tell stories that in some way would and could put a smile on another’s face, maybe let them reflect, renew and remember.

 

GOD DOES NOT BLINK

…There comes a time in life when the soul leads the heart to know the truth of the mind. It is then that inner peace is felt and the truth of one’s belief system is that there is nothing to be said because the essence of connecting to God is more important than being right. One cannot be right or wrong when one believes only God knows the truth of each reason for being.

The mystics of yesterday that prayed and vowed silence at times filled with a belief of being simply one with God all of the time. To pray constantly throughout the day is to offer the heart of the mind and soul, as well as, the body up to God. To know and believe that there is only God and life in truth is only a test to see how we handle the situations in our life.

The fear of the mind, the guilt of the body, the shame of the soul and the grief of the heart fill the lies of the voice to create an illusion one is not able to see and an attachment of false belief for all. What are these fears but that one is inferior because the body betrays us to pleasure it which allows shame to take over the soul for the actions performed. WIthin reason the heart fills with grief for what is and for what is not while the voice speaks of dishonesty and disbelief creating lies we tell ourselves as well as whose we lie to. Before one is aware we are unable to see the truth and illusion is easier to live with as we attach who we are to the materialistic wants of life.

All in all God is the last thought and the ego equals all the fear we fill with as a means of controlling who we are and how we treat another. Unless in some way God is evident in the daily creation of belief in our lives there can never be the voice of love to be heard.

This is the truth of the reason God does not blink because he waits for us to experience the lesson we came here to learn from so that we can go within and be one with Him …

God Does Not Blink

…What you believe answers who you are and how you live your life by the thoughts you think, the words you speak and your actions towards others. In the end, the bottom line is that change, transformation, awakening, enlightenment and claiming the freedom you have been born to discover is possible. This is what God waits for and why He does not blink when we abuse one another by cursing, hating, or screaming. He forgives us because He knows we do not know what we are doing and have not journeyed farther along the path of our destiny just yet. Just as a child who falls while trying to walk is not beaten but picked up and help gently because he has not learned the lesson in life of how to walk. We have come here to learn the lesson of love for one another which begins with loving oneself first. When we love God, we love ourselves. It is only then that we can learn to love another…