THE KEYS OF FREEDOM

As a lover of the written word, I have spent my entire life taking pen to paper. Some may call it a form of therapy. I believe it is a release of that which no longer serves me that my mind clings to. In 1984, I began the journey of writing poetry to deal with stress in my life. For years I rarely felt the neeed to write a poem but more a type of journal writing when needed. In December of 2016 I was at a workshop with my teacher Deborah King in California. As I normally start my day with prayer, meditation and writing I started to write the following poem. I hope you are inspired by my words. My release. My form of therapy!

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I almost lost myself
“The Me of Me!”
In my Spirituality
I became numb to myself
“My Inner Reality!”
Never again,
Shall I stuff down deep within
“My Personality!”

I have laughed …
I have cried …
I needed to die …
From the woman I created
To please those who chose to berate
The brilliance of my light
But the darkness I dove into
Showed “Me.”
I needed to fight
For, “The Me of Me!”
To set “Me” Free …

Freedom is essential
I clearly now see
As a child raised in fear
I silenced the “Me” without a tear
I became a wife on a journey
Of discovery to finally hear

The voice of my inner child’s cry;
“Embrace me for I do not want to die,
Pull me free from the depths of this despair,
For I cannot breathe without your care …”

So I held onto her fingertips
From deep within my being
Knowing it was time to pull her
Up from an inner sorrow,
I was witnessing …

Struggling at first
because of the years
Of neglect of my inner beliefs
I discovered a voice to unravel
“The Me of Me …”

I had roared loudly as a mom
Filled with love, joy, and happiness
Proud of the honor to be chosen
So I became fearlessly
An advocate for those who needed “Me …”

My sanity I was gifted!
As their mom, I was bold
My Passion!
My Purpose!
Allowed me to unfold

With joy for the chores of my life
Stronger beyond even I knew,
I was able to handle all strife …

One may wonder of the time needed
To hug “Me” into becoming my Truth
A week …
A month …
A year …
For “Me” it seemed a lifetime
Of Journaling – Reading – Writing Poetry
By releasing my fears and finally
Allowing the tears!

Still, I subdued the real “Me of Me,”
Behind my Spirituality
Once again I silenced a part of my
Inner child’s laughter, joy, and happiness
Through this new sacred personality!

Today I believe as a spiritual being
I am here to experience my human creation
As I am,
The Divine Presence of God
In action
The “I” that “I AM,”
The “Me of Me.”
Finally …

Thankful!
Grateful!
Joyful!
For the lessons, I learned
Offers an acceptance for the
Sacrifices made,
By those who loved “Me,”
As I loved “them.”
Whether they be family
or friend.

I was aware of a vast resource
on the Ring of Keys!
The Discovery of my
Key of Freedom has
Opened the door
For me to experience more

Which then led “Me” to the
Key of Forgiveness!
To move forward on the path of my
Intended life experience
Once I embraced the Key of Forgiveness!
I experienced the
Key of Gratefulness!

Love…
Light…
Laughter…
Are the Keys to all spiritual passion,
And where I discovered my purpose,
The reason I was born!
The joy of being whole
Now living a large life
No longer being small

The memories of the “smallness,”
I achieved can be released
Today,
I know the path I traveled
Whether silent or not,
fueled my desires

My soul needed to feel nourished
and to be nurtured
Immediately!
So that I could spiritually divorce myself
from an unhealthy
Reality!

Still, I continued to struggle
With who I now was
To believe I could
Grow “Me” to be a better “Me,”
Filled with insight and a new reality!

It seems my belief of going within
For answers to my pain
Ignited a “Love of Self,”
I cherish, which erased
The belief I was insane…

Although I question if this has always been
“The Me of Me…”
Just silently waiting to claim “Me.”
As one who knows that everyone
Has the right to be free!

It is the core of my essence
I’ve connected with
joyfully…
Allowing my truth to unfold
courageously!

My soul is aware it is
nourished beyond and above
More than I could have ever imagined
Through the practice of
Prayer…
Meditation…
Intention…
And Love!

Pray. Meditate. Journal.

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LA Believes

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It only takes a moment in your life when you finally hear the voice of your soul crying out to you. It may be time to release the silence that roars in your head, the creativity that sleeps and the passion that aches from within unfulfilled! It matters not if you are a man or a women but I imagine women slowly walk away from their voice of truth, their desire to create and what the passion in their heart is that needs to be shared by the responsibilities of their life.  My belief stems from my own life experience as a woman.

I was thinking of my life and the changes I have created these past years last week when I realized I am exactly where I am meant to be and these are the words below that I wrote in the form of a poem. Married forty-one years to my one and only childhood boyfriend we have shared a lifetime of love, loss, tears and fears. However, I believe his greatest fear had to be when my soul cried out to me and I began to love me, to know my truth, to discover there was more in life for me. He struggled with this change and still must wonder where I go to but I have learned I have not walked away from him or the life we have created together but away from that which no longer nourished my soul!

When My Soul Cried Out To Me

There was a young girl, innocent and pure

She fell in love one day and never imagined more

A life began filling her days with household chores

She had been taught well to love these chores and never, ever asked for more!

The babies arrived;  1, 2, 3, 4 and she discovered she had locked a door.

There was an inner part of her that felt that there had to be more?

A quick look in the mirror filled her with no resemblance of the girl from yesterday.

Then her soul cried out to her, “look, there is more, you must begin today…”

She fumbled and stumbled fearing to have to leave all that she knew

As the voice within never gave up its call to her to begin anew.

She felt pulled by an unknown force to say “goodbye” to her life!

The journey began for her to find her way back to herself which filled her with strife.

Never faltering to remain she moved forward for her soul ached from within everyday

As her soul whispered, “look for the mysteries that have been locked away…”

A passion for knowledge, sharing and loving all, she discovered one day

As many believed her insane for the changes she craved by the desires that filled her with wanting to open the door!

The years have flown by, the children are grown as she grew into herself with love.

She discovered a cycle, a pattern, a cry from her soul that there is still to be more…