The language of the times has changed drastically. Yesterday no longer serves this day. As a society that is separate in our belief, we now desire to unite. There is emotional pain, fear, anger, and dis-ease of our bodies, and mind. Our souls are offering clues that there is a better way to exist.
We all want peace!
We all crave to be whole!
We all need self-love!
The questions arise daily for many of us that we are unhappy, and being harmed by another’s, thoughts, words, and actions. At times, even our own thoughts that are negative do harm to us. The seeds of yesterday that were planted and fed by anyone who has ever caused any of us to fear, experience guilt, shame for not letting another control us, and grief at a loss of any kind need to be released.
Becoming aware is becoming awakened to the truth, passion, and purpose of our life existence. Somewhere along the path of believing in what our parents raised us to follow and all that society instills as a way to be, look and perform has created our truth to hide. As all of life is energy, money is the culprit in many relationships that manifest a form of suffering. We choose money over our passion and purpose in life.
We desire to be a chef, but the money is in working in our family business.
We want to be a teacher but there is no money for college, and we instead marry and raise a family.
We crave to experience life by playing music, but the money is in working with our hands.
We choose money over our innate gifts.
Life is a process of understanding that free will offers us the choice of how we want to live our lives. Everyone shows us who they are, by their decisions. This very day is the day to sit, close your eyes and reflect on where you are at this time in your life. What is it that you need to release that is no longer serving you. The following affirmations by Sohini Trehan are a way to look within and contemplate your beliefs about yourself daily.
“I am a divine being of light, and I am peaceful, protected and secure.”
Bring your attention to your legs at the base of the spine down to your feet.
Personal development stems from being grounded in our lives. If you are disconnected from your body and the world it is due to trust issues, not feeling safe, nourished, or healthy, that stem from your family, tribe and home experience.
How do you feel at this moment?
Are there any aches or pain?
Do you fall a lot?
What beliefs are yours when it comes to how you were brought up?
Who is part of your tribe on a daily basis?
Do you communicate with love to one another or fear?
Was there any negative birth experiences?
Did you ever feel abandoned or felt abused as a child?
Any childhood surgeries or severe illness or accidents?
Did you move many times when small?
Is permanent stress part of your existence now?
Aromatherapy, by using essential oils in a diffuser like cedar or clover is beneficial. Hug a tree, yoga, Pilates, walk barefoot outside, take a hike, dancing, gardening, sun on your body. Meditate. Journal about how you feel. Visualize your roots. Sit against a tree. Close, your eyes, breathe deep belly breaths and imagine your energetic roots sinking deep into the ground beneath you. Picture them connecting you to Mother Nature and know that the foundation is a solid one to build your life on.
I am radiant, beautiful and strong and enjoy a healthy and passionate life…”
Move up to sacral, place your hands on your naval area.
What is the sensation you experience at this moment?
It is here where our emotion and pleasure exist, the divine inner child and wounded child. A person who has unhealthy boundaries when it comes to relationships, money, and sex, become a martyr. The major distinction is an addiction to food, drugs, alcohol, sex, pornography, shopping, and exercise that is excessive, and chocolate and on and on. A person who wants to control others is angry and filled with rage. They are very excessive, their belief is ‘life is about me!”
Are you creative in your life by enjoying what you do daily?
Are you whole in your sexuality or is guilt in your body from past actions?
Any tumors, or miscarriages?
Prone to negative attitudes daily?
Did you sell out for money, power or sex?
Are you chronically feeling lonely or abandoned?
Do you get angry when you give to others and they are unappreciative?
Are you sacrificing your dreams and goals for another’s approval?
Do you sense impotence within?
Do the opinions of others matter most to you?
Does change terrify you?
Are you revengeful and unable to let things go?
Is there a lack of ethics?
Are you an energy vampire?
Your body needs to move; dance, slow and sensuous or wildly abandoned. How do you feel when you dance? Indulge in a treat once a week that comforts you, take a bubble bath, use scented oils, treat yourself to lunch. Keep the sexual energy moving through fantasy, books, romantic movies or sexy clothing.
“I am positively empowered and successful in all my ventures.”
Take your hands and place them on your solar plexus and imagine the power you possess as a divine being of light and love.
Do you feel powerful in your daily interactions with those you love, work with and when it comes to your parents?
Has anyone ever made you feel shame?
Are you angry?
Who do you blame?
Filled with resentment?
Only you – can do for you! Laughter is the best medicine to heal. Play! Get physically outside in sports, swimming, and connecting to the earth. Get outside every day in the sunshine. Walk by bodies of water, rivers, lakes and the ocean in the moonlight especially.
“Love is the answer to everything in life, and I give and receive love effortlessly and unconditionally.”
Now you are at your heart the bridge to the rest of your body above.
Do you love yourself?
Do you feel loved?
Are you loving?
What does your heart ache for in your romantic relationship?
How has grief kept you stuck in a relationship because of fear, guilt, and shame?
What have you refused to do with passion and purpose in your life because of grief?
Is your heart shut down?
Have you felt betrayed, or rejected?
Who do you need to forgive?
Are you resentful?
What feelings don’t you want to feel?
Being loved and loving is why you are here! Get a pet to love with joy! Meditate, journal, then journal, meditate daily! Intend to be open to loving yourself. Do what you love! When balanced with a sense of love of self and love of others a profound sense of peace and fulfillment is evident.
“My thoughts are positive, and I always express myself truthfully and clearly.”
The throat is our avenue to communicate in life with all. Now it is time to speak your truth! In the past, did someone lie to you and you were aware of it. In doing so, you have grown up to also lie as a defense mechanism because you are clueless as to why they lied. A pattern develops in all of us as we copy our parent’s behavior.
Are you honestly taking responsibility for your needs?
Do you say what you think or do you self-edit?
Do you hear and act on inner guidance?
Are living creatively?
Do you have repeated sore throats?
Frequent pain in this area?
Talk too loud, too much, stutter, or reluctant to speak?
Are you shy?
Purchase a beautiful journal that you will enjoy writing in daily all your thoughts, feelings and insights about you. Scream if you must! Singing lessons, chanting works as well. Pick a form of creative expression like a child; dance, voice, writing, drawing, painting, or whatever appeals to you. If you have relationships issues go to couples therapy to improve communication to connect. Surrender. Open to guidance to a higher power.
“I am tuned into the divine universal wisdom and always understand the true meaning of life situations.”
Between our eyes is our brow or third eye, which also is called our intuition. That which we see that is unseen. We store our memories and dream experiences. The imagination of the past and future is evident here. We also can go beyond our five senses and the physical plane. Discernment in our daily life of what we want to see or not choose to see.
Any health conditions related to the eyes, nose brain or neurological system?
Do you remember your dreams?
Are you closed-minded?
Do you deny or ignore the facts or truth in a situation?
Are you shutting off your inner guidance?
Do you believe your inner guidance does not exist?
Do you believe in a way that it is not of your moral obligations?
Are you negative first and project that out onto others in most situations?
You will benefit by sitting in silence through meditation, being in Mother Nature or even the act of prayer or taking pen to paper? These are the tools to awaken the mind of intuition. Believe that you are intuitive! Practice visualizations. Set an intention and commit to listening within for direction. Honor the information with your actions. Create a feeling of inner harmony by surrounding yourself with beauty that you love. Experience life as a child filled with wonder. Explore life more. Set an intention at night to remember your dreams and write down what you do in the morning. What is the message?
“I am complete and one with the divine energy.”
The crown of our head is our connection to the Divine in thought, consciousness, information, and intelligence. The whole process of knowing. Our search for fulfillment and enlightenment. Spirituality needs to be in the body and our daily lives not in our heads only.
Are you always in your head?
Do you have a holier-than-thou attitude?
Are you spacey?
At times are you dissociated from the real world?
Do you believe you are narrow-minded?
Do you have rigid beliefs?
Meditation, and prayer, as well as a sacred ritual, will strengthen you. Spiritual practices allow us to embrace the universal field of consciousness. Fear, anxiety, and anger tend to close off our connection to the Divine. Prayer, meditation offers a release from difficult emotions so that we live entirely in our unique life journeys.
We are all born gifted!
We need to discover this gift!
We can then live our gift with passion!
At a convenient time, take a pen and paper, light a candle and answer the above questions one by one. In doing so, you will develop a path of truth for how you want to live your life today. Your inner wisdom will guide you towards all that needs to be released by simply paying attention to how you feel in your body.
There are many doors in life that we open as we travel our journey. It seems that we choose to be born into our specific family type to discover one key. Yes, there are confrontations and diseases, illness of all kinds and demons that we suffer. We enter life as a Spirit of Light, and we grow up not remembering who we are or where we originated.
We all get to travel many different paths throughout our lives. Different schools, jobs, and relationships all come and go. Our demons sometimes get the best of us as well. Challenges and chaos seem to be part of many daily lives. The saying goes that when one door closes another door opens in life. However, there is only one key that we need to discover to open the first door to change.
“You have to believe. Otherwise, it will never happen…” – Neil Gaiman
It is a belief of many that this is it! We are here! We live! We die! The end! Some of us believe in reincarnation and that we will get the chance to be born again after we die because our souls are eternal. Karma is another example of what goes around comes around, or what you do to me, I will eventually do to you. There is a belief that we manifest in our lives lessons we need to learn lifetime after lifetime.
“A very little key will open a very heavy door…” -Charles Dickens
My understanding is that we are here to discover one key in life and that is the key to LOVE! If we wake up one morning and feel that life sucks, we are miserable, hate our job, do not understand our spouse and even dislike who we have become, well, change is needed. Fear is the culprit for staying where we are not happy. Fear of change. Fear of blame. Fear of not being loved. There are many fears and reasons, but as a Spirit of Light, you will know when it is time to make a change.
“Beliefs are choices. First, you choose your beliefs. Then your beliefs affect your choices…” – Roy T. Bennett
We are all Beings of Light, and we come to our earthly homes to discover that Love is the key that opens the door to our freedom. Many of us know that there is more to life, even a better way of living life but fear locks us in place. Look around at your life and imagine that you can live your heart and souls desires whatever they may be now. Can you believe this?
The tool that one must discover for making a change in their life is: A shift of belief …
To awaken to know your Soul is the first door of many that love opens
That you as a human are a vehicle, for the Soul is pure light born as a baby to grow and experience free will
There are lessons chosen by Self of Soul that you decided to learn from
The Soul is eternal love and focuses on bringing Light into your life
You are a Being of Light with a mission of awakening, which is due to all that the Soul has experienced every lifetime
To change is to know that there is more to your existence in life
Your Challenges and Chaos have all been agreed on but forgotten
To Be a Being of Love, You Must Choose Love
Remember You are Love, but first, You are Light.
“Where there is love there is life…” -Mahatma Gandhi
There was a time during this life experience that I filled with fear. Fear of EVERYTHING! I walked the path of my journey connected to the challenges, and chaos in life growing up. Yet, I survived and the significant change I made was to get to know me which led me to LOVE MYSELF, the one key! A Belief of Self then led me to open all the doors that I needed to live my Passion of Self and Purpose of Self.
Today, I trust that there is a process to live because I believe the Universe. I am aware that there are no mistakes and that anything is possible with Love! We as humanity residing at this time on Mother Gaia need to look within, connect to our Light and change our beliefs to manifest being responsible for our actions in our relationships to live our universal truths.
“When someone shows you who they are, believe them the first time.” – Maya Angelou
There are many different relationships that we will all live through. Some we will survive, and others will damage us beyond repair. Does one need to ask himself, ‘Why?’ That magic word that tears at our heart when we cannot understand the change that suddenly appears in our life.
Why seems the word that spills from our lips as tears fall down our face. For some reason, we cringe at the change that appears from nowhere. Or, so we assume! Just the word relationship holds a vice around our hearts. Whether it is a parent, spouse, child, friend, relative or boss, all relationships are complicated. All these relationships at one time will define who we are as an adult.
“Find joy in everything you choose to do. Every job, relationship, home – it’s your responsibility to love it, or change it.” – Chuck Palahniuk
We are a society that plays by the rules sometimes, and sometimes we give up on ourselves eventually because we are told over and over again there is something wrong with us. The sad part is that we believe what others say. The voice in our head stems from the view of others most likely. The damage and negativity that we heard over and over again growing up. Those ugly words!
If you create change in your life that leads you down a spiritual path of positive belief, prayer, meditation, forgiveness, and joy, then you will change how you are defined. How you believe is how you believe not how you have been told to believe by others. You have a right to be here. You have a right to speak. You have a right to your dreams. You have a right to know yourself. It is your right to wake up!
It is time for all of humanity to awaken to their truth now. Not tomorrow or next month, but today! Stop letting others define who you are. Be faithful to you in all your relationships. When we choose to live our truth we make important changes which raise our vibration. We begin to live in the present and forgive the past because we cannot change it.
Begin today by raising your vibration!
– Spend a few minutes outside with Mother Nature daily
– Eat more veggies, fruits, nuts, and grains and bless your food
– Drink water that is pure in a glass container and place a crystal in the container
– Wear crystals on your body because crystal energy is what vibrates the Earth, your body and your cells. When we hold a crystal in our hand, it fine tunes our connection and pulse to the Earth – the Mother of all life here (-Dianne Robbins’ book Messages From the Hollow Earth)
“When you stop expecting people to be perfect, you can like them for who they are.” – Donald Miller
Just look around at those you love and live with on a daily basis. Do these people you share your existence with in the form of a relationship speak and sound like they are happy? Do they act joyous? Do they believe they have to be like others? Are those you live with or related to filled with positive words or negative words of speech? Do they ever stop complaining? Do you ever stop complaining about them?
No one does not have a story to share when it comes to our childhood, teen years, adult years and dating years. Some of us are married forever, some of us divorced, some widowed, some have never been married. Some of us are in a marriage we detest and want to get out of, but it is so comfortable to know how your day will unfold, so we stay. Sometimes for the children! Sometimes it is for financial reasons that we stay. But we do stay!
“To be fully seen by somebody, then, and be loved anyhow – this is a human offering that can border on miraculous.” – Elizabeth Gilbert
All of life boils down to our relationships – no matter who they are! Something that has happened in your childhood sets off a trigger today with your wife and a fight develops. (If you are triggered by another, know that there is still a lesson to learn!) You feel that your mom abandoned you when you were small, and today you feel left by a friend who no longer is part of your relationship. Your father is vicious, screams and yells about everything, so you believe that is the person you must be as well. It worked for him, you whisper to yourself, it will work for me!
You do not have to be like another no matter who they are. You can still love your parents, spouse, and friends as they are but do not get defined by others. Be You! Wake Up! Raise Your Vibration! Live Your Truth! Release what no longer serves you this very minute! Choose love not fear in all circumstances and relationships.
Life is meant to be experienced daily with love, joy, happiness, togetherness and most importantly freedom. Freedom to be you, as you are. To live a life you choose to live. To share your life with others that fill you with support, love, encouragement and pure happiness when you are with them. However, we don’t know how to achieve the simplicity of such an existence.
Many of us get sucked into the belief that we have to be angry and unhappy; that we have to earn more money. We must have more things. We must work crazy hours to get more money to get more things. That is when the anger, unhappiness, and emptiness creeps into our lives and drains us. That is when we disappear from the truth of our souls. Greed developes along with the belief in materal things as a way of defining who we are. Eventually, we end up defending ourselves to others.
It takes a lifetime, marriage, many deaths, and divorces but we are very good at this scenario of not being happy. Then to top it off we blame our parents and everyone else but ourselves. When does the love of life, ourselves and others disappear? How do we get so tangled up in a loveless life? The belief of control adds to many relationships that then turn ugly and extremely confrontational. A parent tries to demand an adult child be a certain way! This is never possible, all it is is a form of abuse. There is no unconditional love evident if there is any form of abuse.
I am blessed to be surrounded by young love – a few married for some time and then there are the newlyweds! So beautiful to witness. Such happiness and joy that has not been trampled on. It is pure love to be part of life where young love, new babies, and a journey of experiences waiting to blossom into their relationships. At this time all there is is the memory of their dreams to delight them! Everything seems to be perfect and brand new. They have their dreams and their goals set. Life is magical at this time!
“How people treat you; is their karma – how you react is yours!” – Wayne Dyer
Journal the following questions and change your life today. Not tomorrow!
When did you forget about You?
Did love of self or another begin to extinguish itself through the daily lies, defeats, and anger in your life?
Is there resentment that builds up today because of a change in your life choices?
Can betrayals of self or another stem from the foundation of the love slowly drifting away from your relationships?
Can it be that we as a society cling to the old because we are afraid of the new? What are your fears? Release them today!
Are you ready to awaken and raise your vibration to one of love?
As we travel close to the holiday season I have been reflecting on the changes in my personal life this past year. In the past I tended to fear change but today I welcome it as part of my growth process. Fear is the main function of belief that is claimed by most of us daily. We fear lots of things that either were handed down to us from our parents or society, as well as, many adults in our lives.
When I take time to journal, meditate and pray daily I am blessed with a tender connection to spirit. Intuition flows and insight is received. Sometimes with clarity, guidance and support. These actions of mine taken daily free me from my past. Yet, life seems so fearful for many because they do not take the time to search within themself for answers. That we all have a shadow side means we either nourish the dark side through fear or hold on tight to the light side of our essence by embracing ourselves with love. The greatest nourishment to our shadow side is of course fear!
“Our doubts are traitors, and make us lose the good we oft might win, by fearing to attempt…” – William Shakespeare
What do we fear most … death, drugs, divorce, abuse, abandonment, lack, feeling unworthy, low self-esteem but mostly that we are not lovable and therefore do not deserve to be loved. My belief about life has changed drastically these past years especially when it comes to what we believe about death. The wonder of life is that no one truly knows what happens once we are pronounced dead. My thought is that we are eternal beings and our body is just a vehicle for our soul that crosses over the veil from this life. We cannot see, touch or be with a loved one that transitions over but we can hold them tightly within our hearts and still communicate with them.
Can it be that drugs, divorce, abuse, abandonment, lack, feeling unworthy, low self-esteem and that we are not lovable are the lessons we chose to experience this lifetime. We are beings of light and love so we come to planet earth to grow our souls and balance our karma from past lives. There is nothing to fear when you believe that there is a reason for everything. How many can say that they believe and know that there are no accidents. Of course, it is so hard to grasp that we chose our parents, our life experience and everyone we know to learn who we are.
What is our truth? How can we balance our karma? Forgiveness is the key to balance. Acceptance is the door that opens when we no longer are judgmental or critical of another. Maybe it is time now to ‘flip’ our own thought process when it comes to how we believe, speak and act. I imagine the ability to ‘flip’ comes from the depths of compassion we show another because we see their fear so clearly. Can we not as a society make the decision to offer love in place of fear to one who is full of fear? The terrors of life are what separates each us from our unity as spiritual beings having a human experience.
“Be grateful for yourself… be thankful…” – William Saroyan
For those who feel they were abandoned by a parent, spouse, child or friend and have low self-esteem, feel unworthy and unlovable what are the opposites of these but to love who we are as we are, to know we are worthy, lovable and that we asked to experience abandonment to grow, balance and live our truth. Let it all go. Leave it up to God. Release what no longer serves you. Think out of the box. Find that which creates freedom of thought today! Ask yourself why do you take everything so personal? There is a human need to punish each other only because the punisher feels that something is being done to him or her because of fear.
In reflection of my own life I was raised by two extremely different parents: a fearful judgmental mom and an alcoholic, manic-depressant dad! To me I thought my dad was the wisest man I ever met and I was capable of loving him unconditionally for 30 years while he lived in and out of mental institutions. Still, I saw no fault in him. I imagine today that was because he was the greatest teacher for this life-experience and I chose him. That my dad sacrificed his life as an alcoholic and manic-depressant for me fills me with a deep understanding of the plans we choose in life to know who we are.
There was a time I felt abandoned by my mom over and over again but today I know I was able to grow to the person I am today because of her. My heart and soul thanks her daily for all that I have learned because I chose her as my mom. My mom is 85 years old and in the full stages of dementia for years now. She does not know me or any of her family members. I thank her for commitment to herself and to what she needed to do for me so that I was able to grow to the woman I am today! I imagine how easy life could be for many if they opened their hearts to those they love daily and embrace them unconditionally with gratitude for triggering them, and being the best teacher for them. I find it eye-opening that life is definitely not like we have all been taught or led to believe.
“When I first open my eyes upon the morning meadows and look out upon the beautiful world, I thank God I am alive…” – Ralph Waldo Emerson
Lets imagine that the shadows, darkness, fears and anger are what we chose to learn from. Instead of trying to figure out what is wrong with us, let’s be grateful for the roles we have played in our movie of life as well as those we chose to support us in our movie.
The men in our lives begin their journey as little boys, grow up, fall in love and become fathers and then grandfathers one day. We love them and at times get very upset with them! How do we accept them as they are with their little quirks and ways that drive us crazy? This is the roller coaster ride of one of the main relationships in the lives of all women and men. Well, we did fall in love with them so they had something that caught our hearts. I imagine at times that my own sons would one day love their wives as they love me, and their sons and daughters, as the treasure they are because of the cycle of life. Women and Men on a journey of discovery stumbling and yet so filled with love that we think we know what is best for each other. Why do we get this idea in our heads that we need to change one another? We develop this constant complaining about one another but what are we really fearful of? I believe Father’s day is a day to fill our hearts with love for all the men in our lives because as women the first man we fell in love with was our dad and then our sons. Know there is a reason for everything and never forget you chose your dad and all that he could teach you. You might have chosen him maybe to teach him something.
I have always believed that men had the hardest path because of the responsibility of their lives; loving their woman and providing for their family is a constant. Women on the other hand just do what they do naturally, and nourish and nurture everyone with love. I marvel at the man who cooks and supports his wife. The man who takes the time to know his children. The man who communicates with love in his eyes. May the fathers in our lives and the boys and men that will grow to be fathers in the future take the time to nurture and nourish themselves so they can shower the women and chidren in their lives with love. Men please learn to open your hearts for we truly do love you even when you make us crazy! Women stop nagging your man and just do what you do best – love him!
Happy Father’s Day to the Men in our lives and may the memories of all our dads this year fill us with pride! Forgiveness is key to experiencing love so like the song says … “LET IT GO!”
This word has been going around my mind all week. How is it that relationships are the hardest for so many? I meditated on this and I believe that the first relationship we need to manifest is the one with ourselves. I have asked myself the following and in doing so, I learned that I am capable of saying “YES!” The clue here is to say, “YES” to life.
Questions I asked myself are …
Do you like who you are? Do you know who you are? Can you sit and just be? Is silence easy for you? Are you joyful? Are you happy? Do you know your passion and purpose? Are you living your best life?
I believe that once I found that I loved myself my perspective in life totally changed. I suddenly felt connected to a wider essence, something bigger than me. There was an inner intelligence I discovered that was calling to me. When this calling began I was in despair, filled with doubt and empty of my own belief system. I seemed to be brain washed by the society I grew up in and lived in. Today, I have learned from many teachers, mentors, and by going to workshops and reading lots of books that there is an alternative belief in life that I named believable. I actually named my counseling business Believable Alternatives in 2004. At that time I was clueless as to the meaning but today I know that there is so much out there to learn about by the simple act of meditating, sitting in silence and being aware of the beauty in every day.
The greatest of lessons for me is that I know that I cannot change another but I can change myself and in doing so, others will change around me. Acceptance of everyone as they are by seeing the light within them allows for unconditional love for everybody. No one is more special than another. We are all children of God and we have come here to live life with all its ups and downs. Its about our reaction to life and our emotions that we need to process and release.
I discovered that when I choose to not take anything personal I am at my best. I am positive in thought, word and action. Growing up in a society that broadcasts how a woman is to be a wife and mother, and in today’s world work outside the home as well, how we should look, what we should wear, what is good to eat and bad to eat, as well as, how we need to be heard because we know what is best for another. Ha-Ha! No one knows what God’s plan is for another and no one knows the depth of another’s fears and pain. We all have our triggers that were handed down to us as if our parents were giving us a unique gift. I say, throw that gift away now.
When you get to that place in your life that you know that you do not know anything you are free. All your relationships will be blessed with love. It all comes down to all we choose to be. Going to bed happy with a smile on your lips and trust me you will wake up happy. There is never nothing to worry about when you let go and let God! To travel this life living life and enjoying life by never taking anything personal because you are love, you are kind and you are joyful is the greatest of achievements to manifest. We all are given free will to choose how we want to live our lives. Go for it and see for yourself.
As we approach the day to honor our fathers. I must say that I loved my dad unconditionally from the moment I met him. He was the wisest of men for me. I miss him since he left in 1998 but I know I was a loving daughter to him and my husband was also amazing son-in-law. We talk of him even today as someone who was wise, interesting, loved mother nature and life. A positive being in the world. Yet, he was alcoholic, manic-depressant and attempted suicide at 40 years old but to me he was the best. He was unable to throw away the gift of abandonment that his mother bestowed on him and searched to be loved his entire life. I was told once by a psychic that I was the exclamation point in his life! How cool is that? He knew I loved him as he was, no questions asked. What a ride it has been.