LIFE AS AN EXPERIENCE … Fear vs. Love

IMG_4034Our path is a journey of discovery for each of us. We all awaken at a time in our lives when we cannot take the pain any longer. There are many kinds of abuse, but mental abuse is the most difficult because the words spin around in our minds. An ego is a beautiful tool that can repeat words over and over again in our head. However, the words that scream within usually are negative and filled with anger from another.

“Life is a spell so exquisite that everything conspires to break it.” -Emily Dickinson

Fear stems from the root of our ego. We are blessed with this ego to guide us to awaken to the love of self and love of another. The battle within is that the fear believes it is better and knows what is right for another. Love is the opposite, for it is pure and breathes into all the essence of our truth. Once we embrace love as the belief of who we are no one can ever abuse us.

Each of our experiences is different, but if there is pain, tears, fear, and sorrow, then there is a form of abuse from another inflicted onto you. Why does another feel they have such a right to be mean, condescending, even angry at your actions and choices? Can it be they are mad at their choices in life today which have nothing to do with you!

“Go confidently in the direction of your dreams. Live the life you have imagined.” -Henry David Thoreau

In the past, I searched for something more… I did not know at the time what I needed, but the universe stepped forward and showed me a different life that was possible. As an avid reader, I always believed I was in search of something, and that was why I read so much. My best friend has always been my journal. Writing helped me to survive through the years growing up and then as a wife and mother.

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I never understood mean people or controlling people who wanted me to be other than who I was. What was wrong with me? My path would take me on this incredible journey of books and teachers that would lead me to an understanding of people and their fears.

“Life is not a problem to be solved, but a reality to be experienced.” -Soren Kierkegaard

If I have learned anything, it is that people show you who they are. We as a society try to change one another because it is how we have been raised to believe. Our daily world is changing all around us, and yet we refuse to stop and take inventory of how we are living our lives. Instead, we are concerned with how others are choosing to live.

Abuse of any kind from another is not acceptable ever! Our planet, our home, our mother is feeling the abuse as well. It is our anger towards each other, hate and fear that is spinning her to rebel as well. Love is the essence of our life. Love is the tool to change who we are and to heal ourselves and our world.

I set myself free of those who hurt me by forgiving them and in doing so, I set them free too with love in my heart. I learned the greatest of lessons is that we cannot change anybody else. We can only improve ourselves. I aimed to become a better me. Opening my heart filled with love and acceptance for all is the journey I travel today.

“Dwell on the beauty of life. Watch the stars, and see yourself running with them.” -Marcus Aurelius

Changing oneself opens the door to embrace that which is possible. The reality of this is that we can only change ourselves, it is impossible to change another. As we are one, genuinely connected by all that is others will change and as they do, will see us differently.

Even if others do not understand how we are different, they will know something is not the same. The most significant gift we can offer on those who abuse us is to accept them as they are because that is what we want them to do for us.

Words are the key to many angry outbursts that are not necessarily your truth but as how your abuser sees things. Thank them for their opinion and tell them you will think about their words. Fill your heart with love and move on.

“Be yourself. Everyone else is taken!” -Oscar Wilde

When we as women/men stay true to who we are and drop the defense patterns that no longer serve us, it is at that moment that our world will change for the better. It comes down to trusting God and that there is a process to live. Let go today and Let God do His work!

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When we choose to be kind, loving and accepting of them, knowing they are living in fear and praying for them, allowing them to be as they need to be, we are offering them, love. We must first start with loving whow we are.  It is not the truth of who others are that they show us. They show us their fear.

Some parents believe it is their right to control their children; that their children MUST listen to them even when they are adults. They fear that they are not needed anymore. But, mostly it is a belief that they as the parents, know what is best for their children. It matters not to them that their children are grown and with children of their own. There is never respect in a relationship that travels this path from the parent to the adult child.

“Life is a succession of lessons which must be lived to be understood.” -Ralph Waldo Emerson

There was a time where I chose to accept all people as they are because I saw their fears. Look, and you will also see their fears in how they talk to you. It is almost as if they regress to being a child again and in doing so, act like a child today. A sort of temper tantrum. Listen to them, and you will not need to defend yourself. You never need to defend yourself once you are an adult, mother/father as a wife/husband to another if you are loving and kind to all.

Unfortunately, you will never be able to reach who is abusing you. All you can do is change who you are and how you perceive others. When we all choose to love and not fear we drop our patterns of defense because we know love is all there is. Be the being of love you were born as no matter what.

Pray. Meditate. Journal.

www.LindaAmato.com

HE WAS MY DAD …

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“I thank you for your part in my journey…”

As the only daughter of my dad, I cherished him. Today, I miss him and his wisdom. I imagine he did not have an easy childhood and one I cannot ever imagine. Born in 1927, he lived until 1998 when he died of lung cancer. He was 70 years old. His struggles were many.

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Abandonment, alcoholism, and mental illness. Dad grew up during a time that I was unaware of but heard of; that his mom at 16 gave birth to him and then left him on a stoop at the age of four. That is where his issue with abandonment took off. His father’s sisters raised him. He grew up with hand me down clothes and toys from his cousins! He never felt loved. His dad who worked on the docks of New York City was never there for him.

He told me of working nights at American Beverage Soda Company and how they wanted to give him a 25 cents raise once, but he felt he was not smart enough to be a manager. For 25 cents though, dad could get a can of soda and a sandwich he said. He liked beer at an early age was drunk lots of times but happy at those times, it seemed to me. I had no clue these episodes were what today is called ‘dysfunctional.’

“I thank you for being the reason I smile …”

As a child, I only knew what went on in my house and had no idea of what a normal, happy home life I did not have. Fear was part of daily existence when he was drinking, but the memories I choose to cherish are when he was not drinking. There is ugliness in life, but we can eliminate that which does not serve us today. We can pick what we want to remember. I felt loved by him, and that is the greatest of my memories.

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He sang drunk at weddings, and my mom would drag me into the ladies bathroom and hide because she was embarrassed. Alcoholism would be passed down to him from his family. And so the story moves forward. Married young to my mom, they would raise my brother and me to the best of their ability.

I was blessed to have missed the gene of addiction. I feel all through life our connection was about his wisdom and how I decided somehow at a young age to love my dad unconditionally. I felt he was the way he was because of his childhood. Today I know we all have our stories and in sharing them, we may help another. I trust that the Universe waits for our reaction to the experiences during life and how we decide to live our lives. Choosing love or fear is always our free will in all situations.

The mental illness did not arrive until he was forty years old when he heard voices to murder his family. Instead, he slashed his left wrist and neck. Years later, he told me he could not see himself harming me. He would laugh and say if he had murdered all of us, he would have served 25 years in prison and then would have been free. I guess he never felt free in life and that troubled him. He survived his attempt at suicide but was deformed and never worked again.

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I was heartbroken to the depths of my soul, my mom was terrified, and my brother started his addiction process. The journey began with him going in and out of mental institutions like Creedmore State Psychiatric Hospital, and different psychiatric wards. I was there for him with my husband for thirty years after my mom finally divorced him. He nicknamed me ‘mom’ and ‘author,’ and we would laugh about this. He always adored me and wished his mom was more like me. The reason he called me ‘author,’ was because he wanted me to tell his story. He was very interested in human behavior and all the people who were ill that he met throughout his life. He believed that there was a reason for everything that happens.

The lung cancer that killed him had started 58 years before he died. Through it all he loved life. He worshiped Mother Nature and her beauty. He was addicted to her ocean, pools, and parks. He never drove a car and walked everywhere or took mass transit. He was wise, fun and wanted to be loved. It was my job to love him, and I did with my entire heart and soul. This Father’s Day he is gone nineteen years, and I think of him often. Individual songs that he sang when he was drinking pop on in the strangest of places at restaurants, and we say, ‘hi!’ I smile in acknowledgment of his presence.

“Dear Past, thank you for all the life lessons you have taught me …”

“Dear Future, I am ready now …”

His life may have been traumatic, but it never allowed him to feel sorry for himself. He loved music; all kinds, playing cards, whistling, worshiping the sun, walking outside and listening to the radio. Movies and Elvis Presley and other stars of his era were his favorites. These are my memories of a man who I had chosen to be my dad, and I would like to thank him for being the best dad ever.

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LOVE IS ALL THERE IS…

His love of me allowed me to feel cherished and special even though he was scorned by many as a mentally ill person in our society. There is sadness in how his battle in life was to encourage me to be the woman I am today and what a sacrifice he chose for me. I am his proud daughter because of him. I am who I am today because of him.

As a society, we need to accept everyone’s story and embrace one another with kindness and love. It is not difficult to be there for another who you have manifested as a being in your life for a reason. We are born to learn from one another as well as teach one another during our life experiences. Was it easy at times, no! But! He was my dad!

“If the only prayer you ever say in your entire life is “Thank You,” it will be enough …”

Happy Father’s Day to the many fathers with their issues, addictions and unbalanced behaviors. Please know that, you are loved!

Pray! Meditate! Journal!
www.LindaAmato.com

THE KEYS OF FREEDOM

As a lover of the written word, I have spent my entire life taking pen to paper. Some may call it a form of therapy. I believe it is a release of that which no longer serves me that my mind clings to. In 1984, I began the journey of writing poetry to deal with stress in my life. For years I rarely felt the neeed to write a poem but more a type of journal writing when needed. In December of 2016 I was at a workshop with my teacher Deborah King in California. As I normally start my day with prayer, meditation and writing I started to write the following poem. I hope you are inspired by my words. My release. My form of therapy!

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I almost lost myself
“The Me of Me!”
In my Spirituality
I became numb to myself
“My Inner Reality!”
Never again,
Shall I stuff down deep within
“My Personality!”

I have laughed …
I have cried …
I needed to die …
From the woman I created
To please those who chose to berate
The brilliance of my light
But the darkness I dove into
Showed “Me.”
I needed to fight
For, “The Me of Me!”
To set “Me” Free …

Freedom is essential
I clearly now see
As a child raised in fear
I silenced the “Me” without a tear
I became a wife on a journey
Of discovery to finally hear

The voice of my inner child’s cry;
“Embrace me for I do not want to die,
Pull me free from the depths of this despair,
For I cannot breathe without your care …”

So I held onto her fingertips
From deep within my being
Knowing it was time to pull her
Up from an inner sorrow,
I was witnessing …

Struggling at first
because of the years
Of neglect of my inner beliefs
I discovered a voice to unravel
“The Me of Me …”

I had roared loudly as a mom
Filled with love, joy, and happiness
Proud of the honor to be chosen
So I became fearlessly
An advocate for those who needed “Me …”

My sanity I was gifted!
As their mom, I was bold
My Passion!
My Purpose!
Allowed me to unfold

With joy for the chores of my life
Stronger beyond even I knew,
I was able to handle all strife …

One may wonder of the time needed
To hug “Me” into becoming my Truth
A week …
A month …
A year …
For “Me” it seemed a lifetime
Of Journaling – Reading – Writing Poetry
By releasing my fears and finally
Allowing the tears!

Still, I subdued the real “Me of Me,”
Behind my Spirituality
Once again I silenced a part of my
Inner child’s laughter, joy, and happiness
Through this new sacred personality!

Today I believe as a spiritual being
I am here to experience my human creation
As I am,
The Divine Presence of God
In action
The “I” that “I AM,”
The “Me of Me.”
Finally …

Thankful!
Grateful!
Joyful!
For the lessons, I learned
Offers an acceptance for the
Sacrifices made,
By those who loved “Me,”
As I loved “them.”
Whether they be family
or friend.

I was aware of a vast resource
on the Ring of Keys!
The Discovery of my
Key of Freedom has
Opened the door
For me to experience more

Which then led “Me” to the
Key of Forgiveness!
To move forward on the path of my
Intended life experience
Once I embraced the Key of Forgiveness!
I experienced the
Key of Gratefulness!

Love…
Light…
Laughter…
Are the Keys to all spiritual passion,
And where I discovered my purpose,
The reason I was born!
The joy of being whole
Now living a large life
No longer being small

The memories of the “smallness,”
I achieved can be released
Today,
I know the path I traveled
Whether silent or not,
fueled my desires

My soul needed to feel nourished
and to be nurtured
Immediately!
So that I could spiritually divorce myself
from an unhealthy
Reality!

Still, I continued to struggle
With who I now was
To believe I could
Grow “Me” to be a better “Me,”
Filled with insight and a new reality!

It seems my belief of going within
For answers to my pain
Ignited a “Love of Self,”
I cherish, which erased
The belief I was insane…

Although I question if this has always been
“The Me of Me…”
Just silently waiting to claim “Me.”
As one who knows that everyone
Has the right to be free!

It is the core of my essence
I’ve connected with
joyfully…
Allowing my truth to unfold
courageously!

My soul is aware it is
nourished beyond and above
More than I could have ever imagined
Through the practice of
Prayer…
Meditation…
Intention…
And Love!

Pray. Meditate. Journal.

www.LindaAmato.com

TIS THE SEASON…

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I am flying high on the spirit of the season. My mind travels to the days of my childhood and the excitement and wonder of this time of year. I love the simplicity that allows me to give gifts as a way of expressing my appreciation to those in my life. To me, the energy of money is to share it, if you can! The abundance in my life allows me to be thankful and filled with gratitude daily.

“Had I known that I planned my challenges, I would have seen them rich with purpose …”  – Robert Schwartz from Your Soul’s Plan

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Unfortunately, many fill with despair and grief because of the sad and sorrowful circumstances that they have travelled during their life journey. It is the season to take the time to love all that any of us has experienced, including ourselves. After all, we are surrounded by lights, music and colorful decorations everywhere we go. An added bonus is a snowfall! What delight as a child to know with glee the anticipation of opening gifts. Maybe we need as adults to return to that childhood wonder during this season.

“On Earth and throughout the Universe, Divine Order is created and Divine Will expressed through Service…” – Robert Schwartz from Your Soul’s Gift

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We celebrate as Christians that this is the time of Christ’s birth. What did Christ teach but to love one another, to be kind, and to give of ourselves! Yet, many of us stumble and fall this time of year to a past grief, anger, fear, depression, or hatred even.  I always wondered about the need to simply be mean to anyone you claim to love. Grief is a belief that we have lost someone who we loved and that we can no longer see or touch them. We remain stuck in the memory of the end of their life here and forget the joyful loving memories of yesterday. We are a society that stay with a loved one who has transitioned on at the moment we buried them. Why do we forget their life? How they loved? When they cared and supported us? Why do we not tell their stories and share how they reached us while they lived with laughter, joy, happiness even at times sadness?

” Every death is brought about by the culmination of the vibration of the Being. There is not an exception to that. No one, beast or human, makes their transition into the Non-Physical without it being the vibrational consensus that is within them-so every death is a suicide because every death is self-imposed…” – Ask and It is Given by Esther and Jerry Hicks

However, I believe there is no death but more a transition, there is no end and there is no need to cling to this grief. As eternal spiritual beings our loved ones are right next to us on the other side of the veil. We can dream of them, we can talk to them but most of all we can remember the lives they lived, the joy and laughter they shared with us. They are at peace and they try to reach us by many different means; coins, electricity, lights, music, even license plates. Just believe they are with you and you will feel them yourself. Let them rest in peace and pray for them.

“To find the source of any darkness you may be fighting, and then release it, is one of the most powerful things you can do to move into greater light and joy…” – Deborah King from Entangled in Darkness

Depression knocks us off our feet into the depths of our mind and we cannot function. Yet, we all have a choice every day how we want to feel and how we want to live our lives. Not easy, but we do have the choice to make a decision ourselves and what emotion we want to experience. A good test upon awakening or throughout the day is to ask yourself, “How do I feel right now?” “Why do I feel this way?” “How would I like to feel?”  Three very simple sentences will bring you to an awareness of yourself and your feelings.

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There are many different circumstances for anger, fear and hatred but there is a key to release these emotions that no longer serves us. The key is to forgive ourselves and then to forgive those who have harmed us in some way and filled us with hatred towards them. We can do this by writing down our feelings and then releasing them by burning the paper. Forgiveness will heal you and allow you personally to benefit on your life experience, as well as, them.

Years ago, I read that we pick our parents to learn lessons from them or maybe to help them learn a lesson. Recently, I read that we pick everyone that walks our journey with us. In doing so, we make a plan on what we need to learn and what we need to experience this lifetime. Can you imagine how wonderful it is to know that nothing is as it seems. That you actually planned the life you are living.

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I have been down the road of depression, grief, anger, and hatred, as well as, suicide. In 1994, I learned that I personally cannot control who lives and who dies. The depths of sorrow at the end of a physical life whether adult, child or even a pet is a wave that sits openly in the depths of our hearts forever. We ache for them!  We cry, become depressed and grief takes us over until we cannot breathe or function in life! The pain is unbearable because death is the unknown and the greatest of fears in our society.

“All of the survival patterns arise out of feeling unsafe and all are attempts to create some sense of safety for ourselves. …” – Steven Kessler from The 5 Personality Patterns

I imagine at times that the childhood many of us have lived and experienced has created within us a means of protecting ourselves. As adults today we get triggered to react by simply filling with fear or anxiety, becoming passive, have feelings of being defeated, developing tension or we simply  refuse to express our feelings, because of a situation that brings us back to the original moment in time of thinking we were not safe.

“Write it on your heart that every day is the best day in the year…” – Ralph Waldo Emerson

These survival/defense patterns we created under the age of seven fill us with a belief; that we need to escape mentally, to remember our abandonment issues, because we had been betrayed, or maybe at one time we had no control and were betrayed by someone we loved. Because of these beliefs today as an adult we do not live our truth. We escape at the blink of an eye into a survival/defense pattern. Maybe we just need to finally strengthen our boundaries, own our needs and stand on our own two feet, begin to trust, be assertive or just connect to our heart. Now is the time to finally begin to shift out of these survival/defense patterns and live our truth by becoming aware of our triggers and how we react in all our relationships with others.

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Here’s a gift from me to you: The following books are insightful, and filled with information that will make you think about your own life experience and those you share it with.

  • Your Soul’s Plan: Discovering the Real Meaning of the Life You Planned Before You Were Born by Robert Schwartz 
  • Your Soul’s Gift: The Healing Power of the Life You Planned Before You Were Born by Robert Schwartz
  • Entangled in Darkness: Seeking the Light by Deborah King
  • The 5 Personality Patterns: Your Guide to Understanding Yourself and Others and Developing Emotional Maturity by Steven Kessler
  • Ask and It is Given by Esther and Jerry Kicks (The Teachings of Abraham)

“Violence of the tongues very real-sharper than any knife…” – Mother Teresa

When reading books, blogs or written material of any kind please use your discernment. My above suggestions are just a few of the books that have enlightened me on my path. We are all on this beautiful journey to awaken to the divine love within. To grow our Souls! When we awaken we become seekers to heal by incorporating meditation, prayer and journaling into our daily lives. Now is the most magical time of year, and I hope this blog in some way triggered you to take a peak into my world.

Earlier this week we had a snowfall which magical turned our world white and glistening. I filled with the hope of peace and love for this world and all who I share my life with. The wonder of my childhood surfaced with joy and happiness as I listened to holiday music. My prayer for all is that we learn to open our hearts and fill with love for each other as the spiritual beings we are!

PRAY! MEDITATE! JOURNAL!

www.LindaAmato.com 

THE SHADOWS OF LIFE

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As we travel close to the holiday season I have been reflecting on the changes in my personal life this past year. In the past I tended to fear change but today I welcome it as part of my growth process. Fear is the main function of belief that is claimed by most of us daily. We fear lots of things that either were handed down to us from our parents or society, as well as, many adults in our lives.

When I take time to journal, meditate and pray daily I am blessed with a tender connection to spirit. Intuition flows and insight is received. Sometimes with clarity, guidance and support. These actions of mine taken daily free me from my past. Yet, life seems so fearful for many because they do not take the time to search within themself for answers. That we all have a shadow side means we either nourish the dark side through fear or hold on tight to the light side of our essence by embracing ourselves with love. The greatest nourishment to our shadow side is of course fear!

“Our doubts are traitors, and make us lose the good we oft might win, by fearing to attempt…” – William Shakespeare

What do we fear most … death, drugs, divorce, abuse, abandonment, lack, feeling unworthy, low self-esteem but mostly that we are not lovable and therefore do not deserve to be loved. My belief  about life has changed drastically these past years especially when it comes to what we believe about death. The wonder of life is that no one truly knows what happens once we are pronounced dead. My thought is that we are eternal beings and our body is just a vehicle for our soul that crosses over the veil from this life. We cannot see, touch or be with a loved one that transitions over but we can hold them tightly within our hearts and still communicate with them.

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Can it be that drugs, divorce, abuse, abandonment, lack, feeling unworthy, low self-esteem and that we are not lovable are the lessons we chose to experience this lifetime. We are beings of light and love so we come to planet earth to grow our souls and balance our karma from past lives. There is nothing to fear when you believe that there is a reason for everything. How many can say that they believe and know that there are no accidents. Of course, it is so hard to grasp that we chose our parents, our life experience  and everyone we know to learn who we are.

What is our truth? How can we balance our karma? Forgiveness is the key to balance. Acceptance is the door that opens when we no longer are judgmental or critical of another. Maybe it is time now to ‘flip’ our own thought process when it comes to how we believe, speak and act. I imagine the ability to ‘flip’ comes from the depths of compassion we show another because we see their fear so clearly. Can we not as a society make the decision to offer love in place of fear to one who is full of fear? The terrors of life are what separates each us from our unity as spiritual beings having a human experience.

“Be grateful for yourself… be thankful…” – William Saroyan

For those who feel they were abandoned by a parent, spouse, child or friend and have low self-esteem, feel unworthy and unlovable what are the opposites of these but to love who we are as we are, to know we are worthy, lovable and that we asked to experience abandonment to grow, balance and live our truth. Let it all go. Leave it up to God. Release what no longer serves you. Think out of the box. Find that which creates freedom of thought today! Ask yourself why do you take everything so personal? There is a human need to punish each other only because the punisher feels that something is being done to him or her because of fear.

In reflection of my own life I was raised by two extremely different parents: a fearful judgmental mom and an alcoholic, manic-depressant dad! To me I thought my dad was the wisest man I ever met and I was capable of loving him unconditionally for 30 years while  he lived in and out of mental institutions. Still, I saw no fault in him. I imagine today that was because he was the greatest teacher for this life-experience and I chose him. That my dad sacrificed his life as an alcoholic and manic-depressant for me fills me with a deep understanding of the plans we choose in life to know who we are.

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There was a time I felt abandoned by  my mom over and over again but today I know I was able to grow to the person I am today because of her. My heart and soul thanks her daily for all that I have learned because I chose her as my mom. My mom is 85 years old and in the full stages of dementia for years now. She does not know me or any of her family members. I thank her for commitment to herself and to what she needed to do for me so that I was able to grow to the woman I am today! I imagine how easy life could be for many if they opened their hearts to those they love daily and embrace them unconditionally with gratitude for triggering them, and being the best teacher for them. I find it eye-opening that life is definitely not like we have all been taught or led to believe.

“When I first open my eyes upon the morning meadows and look out upon the beautiful world, I thank God I am alive…” – Ralph Waldo Emerson

Lets imagine that the shadows, darkness, fears and anger are what we chose to learn from. Instead of trying to figure out what is wrong with us, let’s be grateful for the roles we have played in our movie of life as well as those we chose to support us in our movie.

PRAY. MEDITATE. JOURNAL.

www.LindaAmato.com

Being A Conscious Woman

“Love is life. All, everything that I understand, I understand only because I love.”-Leo Tolstoy

As we approach the yearly day set aside to celebrate all the moms in the world, let’s extend love to all the women of the world! As we are born from our mom it is that aspect that we honor. We as women are sacred because we give life, we nurture and nourish. Our bodies are the temple to the children who choose us.  How have we forgotten our greatness? How have we forgotten our truth? How did  we become victims of a society that we as the temples of life gave birth to?

“Above all, be the heroine of your life, not the victim.” –    Nora Ephron

Being an avid reader and student of life I find it extremely upsetting to be reading the stories of abuse, fear, guilt, shame and women that feel they are victims today because of their relationship with their mother. We are more than that when we accept our truth, live our truth and gather together as community.  When we share our stories, we heal. When we forgive ourselves, we heal. When we choose to forgive our moms, we heal. When we honor our moms because within we know they did the best they could, we heal. As a society of healed women our daughters will become the goddesses they are born to be.

“Go ahead unleash your INNER GODDESS today. Embrace all that FABULOSITY that is amazing you…”

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Recently, I attended a gathering of women with my youngest daughter that allowed me to heal from that which no longer served me. The simple pain of a mom who did the best she could because of her own mothers fears, allowed me to do even better. I chose to be a conscious mother raising my children. There was an intuitive guidance that I received! A knowing to love unconditionally because I was setting an example. I knew I was being watched. There was this inner belief of mine that I did not own my children and all that was required of me was to listen, support, guide, be present and there for whatever needs were required of me. Even today I have learned that they still need me to be there for them, to simply listen when they need to vent. Being blessed to also be a stay at home mom I loved every aspect of being a mom.

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I have been given the greatest of gifts by my children to know I did them well. I gave to them something that I did not receive from my mom but which I am aware today she never received  from her mom! I forgive myself for at one time judging her. Today, I forgive her for not being able to do as I needed her to do. I thank her for teaching me to be the mom I am today.

“A Goddess is a Woman Who Breaks The Mold. She’s Who She Wants To Be … And She Offers No Apologies.” -Lisa Marie Rosati

Life seems to be like a Ferris wheel that we all get on as women because of how we were raised. We need to know we can get off the Ferris wheel and remember who we are, not who we have been told to be. As a society we need to love our children especially our daughters unconditionally because they are also the mothers of our grandchildren! As a mother of two sons as well, I am aware of their love for me, and the tenderness and love they possess for the women in their lives. They will be fathers of my granddaughters that will be a goddess of tomorrow! I am witness to the fact that I have done well by them.

“It takes someone really brave to be a mother, Someone strong to raise a child, And someone special to Love someone more than herself. -Lilly

Ask yourself what example of love have you provided to your daughters? Has it been a conditional love of punishment and abuse or an unconditional love of joy, acceptance, support and encouragement! Release that which no longer serves you because it is not your truth. Share your inner being of love with your daughter no matter what it takes from you to release your fears. Be honest when you reflect on what type of mom you are when it comes to your daughter. Maybe it is time to forgive yourself for the choices you made in the past to connect with your daughter again.

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“Our daughters are the most precious of our treasures, the dearest possessions of our homes, and the objects of our most watchful love. -Margaret E. Sangster

Born in 1951 I am of the first generation that was not breast-fed due to the invention of formula. Could that have been the beginning of daughters separating from their moms. The relinquishing of truly being nourished at the breast of our mothers because society deemed it healthier to buy formula! I chose to breast feed my children and I am happy to see the young women of today returning to this simple true connection to their babies.

I believe we as women need to return to the belief that we are goddesses. We are perfect in the bodies we have. We truly possess a beauty because we are the temples for life. We must love our temples for we are setting an example for our daughters. There is no women’s body that is too skinny or too fat. Our bodies are beautiful no matter what shape they are in. My motto is to find that which creates freedom of thought.

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“Calm and still is the water, no birds are in the air, the sun rises slowly to its peak. Trees stand tall, ever so strong, love is never wrong.” -Linda Amato (1994)

I wish all the women of the world a very happy and loving Goddess Day!

Meditate! Pray! Journal!

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LA BELIEVES IN LOVE

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As I travel forward on my journey in this second month of the new year I have taken time to heal. Suddenly on December 22, 2015 I had severe pain in my solar plexus. Finally being admitted to the hospital I had to have an operation to remove my gallbladder. I was released on Christmas Eve to be home for the holidays. I have never had any type of surgery in my 64 years of living. Here I was needing pain meds and anesthesia. The four times I was admitted into a hospital was to bring my beautiful babies to life naturally. When I write I am never sick please believe me that this is a truth I hold proudly to. I don’t even have a doctor! I believe the universe stepped in and threw me a fork in the road.

For one month I took the time to continue meditating, praying, writing in my journal, saying affirmations and coloring. Interestingly enough I decided to take the time to color mandalas one each for the seven chakras in their perspective colors. This action was meditative and thoughtful as I tried to release that which no longer served me.

My belief has always been that there is a reason for everything that we manifest in our lives. Our thoughts, words and action are truly powerful. Our solar plexus is Charka 3 in the body and the color is yellow. The demon of this chakra is shame. This is our body’s power chakra, our will, purpose and action. Our self-worth, self-esteem and personal power. The medical issues for this chakra are:

  • problems with the pancreas, including diabetes and hypoglycemia
  • digestive difficulties, such as gastric or duodenal ulcers
  • liver problems, including cirrhosis, hepatitis and liver cancer
  • hiatal hernia
  • Gallstones
  • Hemorrhoids
  • Varicose veins
  • problems with the spleen

Looking at this list I do have varicose veins since a very young age and I learned that I had gallstones which jumped out of the gallbladder and filled me with severe pain. In shock and questioning the doctor, I learned that I had these gallstones for about 30 years and that it was inherited if my mom had her gallbladder out, which she did. Also that becoming a mother had something to do with it. A lightbulb went off in my head when he mentioned 30 years.

For the past 15 years I have been a vegetarian and for two of those years I was a vegan. I changed my life by empowering myself with affirmations, meditation, and prayer. At fifty years of age I went to school and started a business. I counsel one-on-one clients as well as holding workshops and weekend long retreats for women. I self-published a book and write this blog. I am extremely positive in my beliefs and very alternative across the board daily. I also continue my studies when it comes to the chakras, spirituality, and learning from Deborah King.

As I sit and type this as my view on this episode, I understand better today the power of the universe. The past had to be released finally from my body. The projections of others growing up as well as my present life situations. To love unconditionally cannot be taught but it can be seen, I believe. My eyes were opened to my review of my journey and the words I had drilled into my head at a young age. I had no signs that I could put my finger on but there were many moments of despair through the years. At first I felt that I lost something or that I failed at my life because of this imbalance in my third energy center. As crazy as this is to read I feel free, open and as if something was removed from me that no longer served me.

Deborah King writes in her book Truth Heals the following:

An unbalanced third energy center may be expressed in either outward push mode (the aggressor) or inward collapse mode (the victim). Co-dependent relationships are fertile breeding grounds for this push/collapse dynamic. One person pays the role of “can-do” while the other acts out the “can’t-do” – both are dis-empowered. Those with collapsed third energy centers often feel doubtful, indecisive and lacking in self-confidence.

To support an increase in energy, vitality and connection to self, I often recommend that people spend a portion of their day in the sun, preferably in the early  morning or just before sunset. Engaging in any physical movement awakens and recharges your body, especially first thing in the morning. Try some form of intentional movement like t’ai chi, yoga or pilates, preferably outside. Gardening is another wonderful antidote to a frantic, fast-paced routine. Anything that allows you to slow down and become acquainted with who you are and what you really feel is key.

My path is clearer today than yesterday. There comes a time in one’s life where we must decide to get to know our truth and what is our passion and purpose. As a child I always wanted to be a teacher and writer. Today I feel that I live my passion and purpose in all that I do. With my husband, four amazing children, five grand babies, friends/family and wonderful clients and soul sisters in the Deborah King’s Soul family I am loving this ride.

Meditate. Pray. Journal

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Dream – Awaken – Dream

Right now at this moment in time IAM a woman with many dreams to fulfill. It is all I can do to contain myself as I wait, but what am I waiting for? It is the virtue of patience that IAM very good at, mixed with a lot of endurance. It is with this acceptance that I live my life and acknowledge all that is to be. IAM not a child but a woman who has lived a life that was never ever questioned by me. One of my gifts is to pick myself up by connecting to my God-self. The first dream on this amazing journey of my life was to begin to question who I was which opened a door that led me to a path that stirred the passions of my own purpose. I wonder today if I can be other than a published author? Do I have what it takes to help another through the written word or by my speech and actions? My motto is that I believe anything is possible once we choose to make a difference in life. However, one cannot do anything at all without God!

I look back on the past sixty-two years of my existence that was sheltered but very comfortable and familiar with the love of my family and friends. Basically, IAM an introvert, a loner who dreams in the vastness of my own imagination. Yet, IAM a seeker of knowledge today who strives to share with all how powerful we are. I find that others can be very judgmental, mean and hurtful towards me that makes me slip silently back to yesterday and agree with them. Then I remember who IAM because in the pit of my stomach lies a pulse that quickens and tells me to stay true to self – for they do not know.

Unconditional love means accepting each and everyone as they are to walk their own journey, make their own choices and being aware that no one knows what is best for another in any situation. Difficult, yes, but the only way to allow one to connect to their God-self. The ego fills us with fear! Roaring at us about everything that does not matter. God fills us with love! Whispering like a feather that floats by that He rests within. Ego takes us outside of ourselves. God leads us within to where He is.

My path is moving or shifting in a few months and I truly do not know where IAM headed but I trust God does. Another may say that IAM courageous and strong but I think IAM curious to see all that I can accomplish; whether it be through the written word of my writing as in blogging, publishing another book, traveling, educating myself further or just meeting interesting people and simply belonging somewhere other than the memories of yesterday. I have learned to take the good memories because I believe they have brought me to this page but its so easy to slip back into silence. IAM walking away from the life of silence to survive. Yesterday can no longer be for me. It is the new day that I await with love to guide me. To know and understand that IAM following that which is offered by the universe allows me to let go of worry. I truly trust and believe that there is a process to life. Today I look at my life as an existence that has its own strength and IAM simply a form to be used to live this life. 

Only I can live this life! No one has the right to silence anyone, harm anyone or even try to degrade another in anyway. The spirit of love and peace fills my spirit. There are no regrets, no fears but only the truth of my self as I connect with all that is. There is a vastness to life that is besides all our journeys as if we are living a dream. Along the journey of life we must awaken from the dream and know our truth to survive. 

Pray, Meditate, Journal.

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IAM Led By Spirit …

At times I wonder if it was my choice to love myself which made it possible for me to change and be myself. Interesting concept that one day I awoke to this revelation … love myself.  Then suddenly IAM driven to learn and be true to me? To discover IAM strong! IAM unique! IAM a child of God! IAM a spiritual being! IAM free to choose how I desire to live my life! Amazingly this power of love for me, that fed my soul, allowing strength for me to focus on a life, my life that needed to change. I believe it is the miracle of life that creates the power of thought to fling open the windows of the soul to allow in nourishment that has nothing whatever to do with food. Food for the soul can only be described as love. Love, I have discovered is the strength to live ones life by. No pain, fear, or hate can survive when one finds their strength from within to be because they love. IAM witness to the strength I possess today because I chose to love myself and all in my life unconditionally.

Still, I wonder about the beginning of the journey and all that it entailed to get me to this page. In prior writings, I have discussed about being led, and pushed almost forward without any clue as to why, when or what was to be. Today, I believe I was led by Spirit!  At this moment, IAM led by Spirit! Once I accepted the me I was born to be, the rest flowed willingly.

As a society we look at death as the end of life but I have learned there are different kinds of death and there is one which leads to the continuing of life, which allows one to begin living their truth.The other kind of death is the moving on of ones soul as they cross over the veil from this world to the world of becoming an eternal being. Either way we must mourn that which is no more.

I imagine those we love suffer the most because of either change in life. Change of any kind creates fear. Simply, fear of the unknown. One cannot help either change because there is a purpose and a path to all of our journeys. It is the experiences of life, the sorrows and joys that connect and make us a family in unity and part of the universe as one. Yes, there is confusion, depression, sorrow and fears we all must deal with either way. Unfortunately, it seems to me that it is the unexpected end of not seeing someone we love as we thought they were. Change, choice and free will are our gifts from God and when it is time Spirit will come to help in either scenario. It is the hardest part of acceptance of death to no longer share another’s experiences in life because they are physically no more or that they have chosen to be connected now to the powers that be.

I believe when one feels despair and sadness which leads them to bring to an end that which cannot be anymore, they are led by Spirit to do so. Those who love them and think they know them are greatly wounded by this choice. Please know that this is the power of the universe, the process of life is written and created for all to expand their souls. Love, joy, kindness, happiness, inner peace and healing await everyone. It matters not when you become aware of Spirit just that you know change is possible.

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Claim your power today…

When do we learn of the power and strength within that creates a path we must follow by being protected by the power of our own thoughts? I believe it is the final stage of belief that there is a process to all of life that is amazing. Many people cross our path, some stay, some move on but some are the greatest and brightest of lights that come to guide us. When we believe in ourselves because another believes in us is a verification of our truth. It is then when the doors and windows shall open to let the sun into our lives. It is this light that becomes the brightness in life that warms our days. The discovery and ability to be witness that one is on a journey that will make them whole.

Personally, I have noticed I have new words in my writing; unity, self-harmony, universe, whole, purity, grace, truth, divinity, eternal and spiritual. For me these words are a completion to all that IAM learning. It is the beginning of who I truly can be. The sadness is that there has to be an end to what was, only because this is my journey and one must fulfill their dreams to live in the light and glow of love eternally. IAM traveling that which has been written in my book of life I believe. IAM filled with the emotions of yesterday because IAM thankful and grateful to all I have learned from because in dong so, I have remembered what is important to me.

As part of this universe I appreciate the beauty of life and how I have unfolded myself into such enormous growth. As I travelled this path of change through these past years I have been witness to many different thoughts only because I needed to research how I accomplished all that I did by never leaving my home. I began a search seeking to know, devoured by a belief that there was more to life and learned from many books about the protection of totem animals and saw my own timeline and years I was guided and comforted by them. I always believed in God but now I met my Angels, Archangels, Ascended Masters, Spirit Guides and Ancestors through prayer, meditation and my greatest of passions writing daily in my journal. 

I believe it is the requirement to accept life and to love the life you have, after all you chose it. I have loved my life always and this love is my strength that led me to the woman IAM today. I ask to live a life of cleansing myself of yesterday’s toxins by my spiritual belief now. IAM accepting of all the powers of the universe that IAM provided with. As I look at the world with eyes of a child all is new. My spiritual belief is charged! I no longer have any use for the beliefs of the past or even any of my own old attitudes. I release and forgive all that was! IAM delighted with all that IAM given and realize my own deep inner wisdom is the grace and strength of who IAM today. This instinct of belief is part of me and with determination and will power I will be led to all in a spiritual form of unity. I bless this life I have been given anew and believe in the journey.

Are we not all survivors of sorts that search for a second chance? A place to start fresh? To begin anew? It is the brief voice within that whispers, ‘yes there is more!” Once one begins to listen and search for that ‘more,’ begins the process to discover ones passion, purpose and destiny. We are led to know we are never alone as we travel the journey of this life experience as I have been shown because the universe stands right by our side. It is this feeling of wholeness of thought that makes me aware and insightful of life. It is the comfort and guidance we are all given by this belief in the unity of life. I live in a spiritual world that I can share with those in the physical world. For there are many who cannot grasp this inner beauty  and kindness that waits for them.

The bottom line is to experience the wonder of being nice. It is a little word and yet very few possess the ability of being even nice to those they claim to love. To tell any lie of any kind drains everyones energy. To hurt another, not only hurts that person but hurts oneself by the draining of ones energy as well. It is that which society needs to release as a way of existence. Honesty and kindness incorporates love into being and begins ones journey to find who they truly are. It is the truth of life we all need to look for. To believe otherwise is a rejection of the process of life. Everyone needs to set goals to learn from to accomplish their destiny.

There definitely is a process to all of life. There is a renewing of energy by embracing and grounding oneself with love for Mother Nature. Life is about paying attention to the signs and being aware of how we show who we are to others. Know that there is goodness in all. We are not separate from each other but one. How we speak, think and act has an affect on all of mankind. It is this understanding that we all possess that we are separate on our own paths that confuses us. Know we are united towards the accomplishment of truth which will lead us all to love.

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“it is a requirement to accept life and love the life you have…”

 

The spirit of our soul cries for us and gives us opportunities we push aside. It is the way of our lives to doubt ourselves and believe we are not good enough or not capable of fulfillment. We refuse to accept our own voices in the night. The stillness and silence one needs to achieve can and will open many doors to show us the way. They say dreams come true but only if we realize it is our dream and one we can make true by being honest and truthful to our passion. Not for the monetary accomplishment but for the freedom and happiness in doing what is important to us as well as being able to help others. I believe this is the truth we all need to search for. It is the whole essence of whom each and everyone can be. To realize we can free ourselves by that which we acknowledge as the path of our own fulfilled destiny. Never to forget there are reasons for everything daily and there are many teachers we can learn from.

When we choose to pay attention and meditate we will fill with awareness which gives us insight to see the clarity of our own existence. To close our eyes to see is the greatest step in life. A true lesson in all that one can be is to be accepting of the connection to a greater existence. That which is part of the universe of life will allow one to be grateful, appreciate the beauty shown and to be then encouraged by that which belongs to us. To see and grasp this while we fill with love, understanding and compassion to create enlightens our souls. Not to waste time and dream but to dream and create is an accomplishment. To know we belong to a universe that smiles down on us as we are watched and guided on our way.

Our soul craves to express its wholeness, to feel free by the act of being productive, curious to learn as much as we can and to be nourished by that which is our inner wisdom. Find your place to be in silence, to gather up your resources and surrender to the powers that be. In doing so, you will become like a child filled with joy once you accept the wisdom that rests within.

Every soul desires and craves solitude to fly on its own.

Every destiny is being fulfilled daily as we live in spirirtual oneness with the universe.

Everyone needs to realize their power and give thanks for it.

All need to release their emotional self so that a cleaning can take place.

All will discover that their emotional energy and intuition are part of their life’s path. 

The changes will become vast once the soul becomes whole. It is the sense of being united with all that will fill one up. One will become sure footed in their direction and path in life. They will be given an intense feeling of enormous change in life when they are ready. Change comes to all when change is requried. To fulfill the burning desire in the heart one needs to trust and believe that all things are possible. All will be comforted to know that as their dream unfolds into reality they will fill with abundance and gravitate towards the light of love.

It is the work that needs to be done to learn and create a spiritual life that will lead one to complete their journey.

It is the trust and belief in the universe that allows one the strength to be aware of the depth of the sea and its vastness for comfort. Being drawn to water connects one with being drawn to the flow of life; its beauty, strength and calmness. We all need to connect to the elements for sustenance at one time on this journey; the earth, water, fire and air. At that time one can ask anything of the universe and be granted what their heart desires because we are one. This is to be accepted and acknowledged as part of the miracle of life.

Let your dreams be a window that opens in the night to guide and comfort you.

Pray, Meditate, Journal

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